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Just an update on my surgery/possible cancer stuff.

I'm freaked out. I'm not worried about the pain. I'm worried I'm going to die. My vivid imagination is not helping.

Anyway, I got the blood test back; one marker is elevated, possibly indicating ovarian cancer; the other marker is okay. I've scheduled my MRI and CT scan, and have found a local guy who will change out all my body jewelry and reinsert for the tests. Except for the chest anchor, which doesn't come out.

I'm trying to do the responsible thing and "take charge of my own health." But it's hard. The stress is making me tired and tearful at a time when I'm trying to build up my physical and emotional reserves. It's good that I have a few weeks to research and make sure I'm making the right decision. It's bad that I have a few weeks to get progressively more freaked out.

WOW! Cloud hang in there. I am sure that you are not alone on these boards. Sending the best of wishes your way.

i hope you live to be 90, cloud

I know it's hard not to stress yourself out when you get some scary news which might turn out to be nothing, but it's the thought that it might not which freaks you out.

The only advice I have is to just use all that willpower within to focus on a positive outcome, no matter what the results of the tests. You can do it, and we'll all be here to help you when it gets to be a bit much.

You're a top chick. You're going to be fine because I said so and that's all there is to it. x :) x

:comfort:

Dunno what else to say. Be gentle with yourself.

Yeah, but think positive, we are. :thumb:

You sly devil, you.;)

Yes. Yes, you can.

And we can, too.

You can beat this. We can help.

*Hugs Cloud* you'll get through this. My prediction is that it will turn out less scary than it is now. We're here if you need us.

*hugs cloud, too*'

We are here for you, cloud. PM if you want - we will get thru this together no matter what it is. YOU CAN DO IT.

Hang in there cloud - We're all here for you.

Sending my support, as best as I can.
Hugs.

I think any illnesses which dare try to invade Cloud will run screaming once they realize she means business.

Keep talking about it Cloud...we're here for you. Huggles.

Hey, once they get things out, can you tattoo them?

See ...
we're all here for you! Sending the good vibes from far away!

You should start planning for a new piercing or tattoo, to celebrate when it's all over. That's a lot more fun than planning for tests.

I think something along this lines can be a real help. It helps to have something to look forward to.

I used to do something similar when I went back for my CS degree. I had to go through a number of math prereqs to get to the programming courses that I really wanted. Everytime I finished a math course I bought myself a cd or game.

Any update?

you guys are ahead of me. Yes, I'm thinking about some new body art as therapy afterwards. I --briefly--thought about tattoing depictions of my missing organs on my belly, but -- naw. I'm leaning toward stone age cup marks.

No update yet, because my doc is out of town until March 30, so I'm in limbo and won't get the results of my tests (MRI) until then.

I've calmed down from my initial freak-out. Thanks for thinking of me!

Well hang in there. I will send good vibes your way. :thumb:

Wow, I wasn't aware of anything, but I am now and will be sending healing vibes your way. And may I suggest, for your victory tattoo, a nice rendering of either the Cellar monkey or Spacebat?

Good luck Cloud - here's hoping comes out alright.

And how are you doing Bri?

And Merc, aren't you going through some similar crap too?

And how's Decca doing?

Holy hell, I need to count every single one of my blessings right now.....

thanks, QotR. I'm doing really well. I feel great - except for the vampire nightmares. :) thanks for asking!

Eat garlic before you go to bed. No vampires, I promise!

that's a good idea! :litebulb:

On the up side, with all that useless stuff gone, you'll have room to smuggle the good shit back from Mexico. Carpe Diem. ;)

Hell Yeah! Sieze that carp, honey, sieze that carp!

Uggg, carp are bottom feeders. :)

Cloud we're here for you. Personally I like the space-bat tattoo idea.

Ah shoot, Cloud.
Sorry I missed this.

ALL my love and support and thoughts and hugs.
My heart is with you while you're waiting darlin'.

Ah well, thanks. you just go on. I'll let you know when I know something.

Don't look up medical info on the internet. I scared the bejeezus out of myself researching my cancer. Think positive

:) Best wishes..........And don't forget, you rock!

Hey! I've got a geat idea...let's all mail rocks to Cloud to show how much we think she rocks....no? ...bad idea? k...I'll just drop it then...won't mention it again.

Though she does rock.


[eta] I'm not entirely sure at what point I started 'mailing' items intsead of 'posting' them...

sinking like a stone . . .

glub glub glub

Noooo! Oh no, now I feel terrible!

You're not sinking. You're on solid ground.

uuugh.....ouch...........

Let's send tiny bubbles......;)

wait . . . I'm too fat to sink! (bob, bob, bobbing along . . . )

Can we post her a cloud instead? How should I wrap that?

Hey, you're gonna lose weight, Cloud. :thumb:

won't be able to exercise though. or get up to get to the kitchen either, so I guess it will work out.

Not for long, you'll be back in the groove in no time.

I'm still waiting . . . still waiting . . . big "reveal" is on Monday.

I'm over my freakout, the initial shock that is. This week one of my boss's sisters died from ovarian cancer.

I'm freaked out all over again!

Crossing my fingers for you, Cloud. Remember to breathe!

Shouldn't be, you should be relieved you're on top of this, so unlike her, you'll be cool... longtime. :female:

Please stay calm......I know it's hard, but this too shall pass...

Don't dwell on other people's experiences. They are interesting but you need to focus on yourself and your own needs. Relax and remind yourself you don't control the future. I will be thinking of you Monday. Be well.

I . . . don't control the future?

well, darn!

Lots of prayer and positive vibes headed your way.

From me too, Cloud. Keep us posted.

*Update*; just got back from the doc--tests show no indication of cancer.

Yay! (whew!)

But, I have an enlarged uterous and multiple ovarian cysts. I've scheduled a hysterectomy for Tues. Apr. 7.

I think it's the right decision for me.

WOOHOOOOOOOOOOO. I'm so happy to hear there's no cancer, Cloud.

Eh, let 'em take the nursery. You get to keep the playpen. ;)

it was all your positive vibes, guys--thanks!

I'm glad to hear your fears have been allayed. You'll be back on your feet in no time.

Hooray!!! I am soooo glad to hear no cancer. I guess the cysts can be painful, but after removal you'll be floating again!!!

GREAT NEWS - Hooray - never underestimate the power of teh cellar vibes.

I never will again, that's fosure!

I'm really glad to hear it, Cloud! We'll still be crossing our fingers for the 7th. The vibes are still good!

Excellent, Cloud. That's got to be a relief.

fabuloso! Great news! We rawk (I think) ;)!

Thank fuck for that. *Smiles* Good news, m'dear.