A Lonely Girl
 

I'm lonely and need a friend to speak with. I've sent you all a message but no return. Will anyone speak with me?

Sure. What's your name mean?

My login? Well if thats what you mean then.....

At my school we have ids that get us on the computer or get us lunch, this is the number thats at the bottom of mine. Its easier remember 1 login than 5 different ones!

Fair enough. What are the first and middle names listed on your birth certificate?

I was born July 8 as well, though 5 years earlier.

April Yvonne, why do you ask?

Just to get to know more about you.

Describe yourself in eight words. And... how did you stumble upon The Cellar?

Well my English 4 teacher has a forum site that got blocked by the school b/c it was a message board. So I went to Yahoo, and typed in forums/message boards. This was THE ONLY ONE that would work so this is what I do in my free time.



Myself in 8 words...
pretty
nice
fat
geek
lovable
cuddly
amazing...

I can't think of another one. Help me out.

So why are you lonely?

Well just that my friends are slipping away from me. You know that one kid that sits all alone at lunch and everyone is laughing at him? Thats me. So I come to the forums to find life. Crazy?:confused:

You really sit alone at lunch?

Don't sweat high school. Keep your grades up, snag a degree and show the world who's boss.

I never sat alone at lunch, 'cause I always sat with my sister. Believe it or not, I'm pretty enjoyable to be around most of the time, so we had a pretty large group of friends who we hung out with. And the class that I had lunch during was taught by a <a href="http://www.google.com/search?q=%22robert+foor-hogue%22&sourceid=mozilla-search&start=0&start=0">friend/mentor</a>, so I could basically come and go as I pleased (which meant, of course, that I always ate with my sister). Good times.

Friends will come and go. That's the way of it, unfortunately. You'll find a few that will stick around for the long haul.

Yes I sit alone. I'm the nerd who will make the $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$ so they can hate all they want!

I had a pretty decent time in high school - i.e., I kept myself occupied, never had much idle time and managed to cover all the bases (I think - varsity sports, music, parties, proms, drugs & alcohol).

I have no problems making friends - I'm really easy to get along with, always have something interesting to talk about, don't flake out on plans and party like John Belusi on Animal House. What I discovered by the end of high school was that what my mom had been telling me for years was true: Drinking buddies aren't really friends.

So, in short, my real friends emerged through the chaos as we all transitioned to college. I don't have too many; I don't particularly like that and I've been trying to figure out why that keeps happening. I've been so loyal to so many people, but few ppl seem to acknowledge that - hence I stop playing "friends" with them.

High school is tough - socially, academically, mentally, physically. Find your interests and invest a lot of time in them - give yourself an identity. I tried to be what other people were looking for, when I should have been looking for people that had similar interests.

Thanks that helps!

Join the theatre. Maybe I'm biased, but theatre geeks are the coolest bunch of people there are in high school. And not a one of them will likely care too much if you're awkward, because they are too.

I know people in there! True true!

Yeah..theater types are the best...even the geeks (lights, sound, props, scenery...okay, everyone who isn't actually acting, for the most part) are pretty hip.

The biggest parties when I was in high school were always put on by the crew hippies.

All of the crap that people think is so important isn't. It never was, never is. I was a computer geek that dressed in black, got picked on til my Junior year in high school. I just decided to try football, and suddenly I was ok. That taught me that a lot of people are full of crap; they're not bad people, their mental filters are clogged and in dire need of cleaning. Be true to yourself. A lot of that feelgood talk does exactly that, but after a while you do realize that you're just as important as anyone else. There are times when you'll be alone; this is true. It's goig to sound funny, but you'll always have yourself. True friends will stick with you. Sometimes you may want to poke some of them with a pointed stick, but that's normal, too.

I bet you could probably finish a high school equivalacy right now, but don't. Stay with high school. I always get a good feelling when I look at my high school diploma. I also get an better feeling looking at my 2 year diploma from community college. Art appreciation indeed. I feel even better looking at my savings account now and realizing that I could go out an buy a Ferrari that needs TLC.

Get a cheap MP3 player and go for a walk. Find the best music you can and the best trail you can. Have no goal other than to go for a nice long walk, though.

Realize that the crap people may feed you is crap, but don't let cynicism become a way of life for you. Cynicism is a tool, not a lifestyle. If you let it rule you, you'll end up like Dennis Leary: Dark, bitter, funny, and one lung away from a transplant.

It's okay to daydream about the future, about 7-10 years from now, but start making small steps toward that today; 7-10 years later can creep up on you sooner than you think.

Extend common courtesy to others, but make sure that your courtesy extends to yourself. You are the only "you" around. Respect yourself.

Pretend to be a Jedi, but don't make the lightsaber sounds; it freaks people out. The hand waving, the Jedi mind tricks work on ocassion. Weak-minded people and all, you know.

Wear sunscreen ...

I can't believe you just got that fucking song stuck in my head.

pussy



-you'll only get this if you've read the pussification thread


sorry, perth...i couldn't not do that!


your pal,

asshole

Damn, I gotta watch out for that. I'LL GET YOU, LUMBERJIM!

april,

if you enjoy your own company, you don't have to feel lonely.

avoid listening to depressing music, and wearing too much black clothing

There's always ... drugs. Not that I've ever gone that route ...

Not a good idea with a baby to take care of.:(

Lonely is just another word for not having met your match.

Since you are in high school, that's probably a good thing :)

Let not your heart be troubled - trust me when I tell you that it is a good sign that high school is not the best time of your life.

That'll mean more retrospectively than it means prospectively. But, I think you already understand that. Take comfort in your future - and it won't be because you make more $ than the people around you - it really means that you finally decide to recognize that who you ARE is really pretty cool. And THAT is the biggest victory of them all.

Accept yourself - even if the people around you don't. A change of scenery works wonders!!

High School, depending on your district, is a span of three to four years.

Right now, this seems like a lot of time.

Before you know it, it won't be.

There is life after high school, to use the title of a book written before you were born.

You're learning a lot about yourself now, and also about interactions with others. Don't sweat it.

Even if you don't believe it, [fill in crisis point of your own here] is not the end of the world. In case you think it is, know where to turn for help and support.

Going your own way in high school can be tough, but it's good practice for the rest of your life. You do not need to follow the herd. Actually, it can be a LOT more fun not to.

Make the most of this time and try not to dent up the 'rent's car too bad when they let you use it.

Before you know it, you'll be an old fart like us. And here's the scary part, you be saying things you never imagined, like:

* I remember 20 years ago when....blah, blah, blah

* Sixty isnt really old.

* Jesus it's getting late, I better stop drinking and having a great time and go home to bed.

* Maybe I'll have some vegetables with dinner

* Where'd I leave my damn teeth

* Kids today, Chirst!

* Thats not music, I cant even understand what their sayin'

The difficult thing to get is that almost every other kid in your school has similar feelings. The big joke you'll be in on later is that there is a tiny minority of folks who'll always look back at high school as the best time of their lives. How pathetic. Some of the same kids you resent now will never get a life. You will not carry that baggage around. You will be looking forward.

Thanks for all the advise guys. I'll stick to good grades and just keeping to myself thats the best way to go. I think I just need to worry about me and my daughter for now. Thanks again!

How do you manage to have both good grades and a daughter? I thought those two things were pretty much mutually exclusive. Are you in a special program for kids with kids? And what's your custody arrangement? Where's the little r970 when you're in classes?

I don't have any friends...it makes my life simpler that way. :)

Well I just study alot I try not to let my problems get in the way of my school work. A lot of my friends with babies drop out or get their ged.Yes I am in a special program. Its calles PSAP. They help with insurance, day care, summer school, and drivers ed. They also help us with our personal problems. My daughter is with my mom during the day. I'm very grateful for that b/c if she was in day care I would be home all the time from her being sick.

the dark side of onyx surfaces
**eerie music**
be afraid....be very afraid

well i hope you've learned your lesson, young lady. always flip your shit immediately. it is unfair to take out 12 years of pent up rage on one individual (except for maybe dave)

now drop and give me twenty!

whoooook!

the last fight i was in was at the beach on my 12th birthday
i bitch slapped a 15 yr old, and he nearly drowned because the fight took place in the water....stupid

then, my dad came close to fighting his dad!

the kid started it so my dad wouldnt make me apologize for defending myself

ever since then ive been big enough to intimidate or smart enough to avoid fights

im about due...anyone wanna wrestle? cougar?

ROFL! THATS IT! im coming over there~~! start moving the furniture out of the way!

what state do you live in?

Sad to say (is it?) I've never been in a fight, but I've been tangled up in the middle of brawls and had a few punches thrown at me. The most I've done is ... oh man, three of my friend's frat brothers were picking on some guy outside a bar late one night, and were damn near killing him. We split up the ordeal ... I had one in a headlock and slammed his head into a wall. Just a few cuts, nothing bad.

ok cougar, fine. i'll just put a spell on you..... cuz your mine

chicago is it? what street?

I didn't really pay any attention to most of the thread, but:

What's wrong with getting a GED?

Admittedly, I'm sort of biased; I've had mine for a few months, and am now chillin' at <a href="http://www.uoregon.edu/">UO</a> a few years ahead of the game. I suppose it helps that I can't get pregnant, but still.

This is beginning to sound like a fight ... or a porno! :D

"Hey! You're not supposed to be in here!" *funky gee-tar*Bow chicka bow bow bow chicka bow bow bow.

OhmyGod: I remember thinking that the day that I started saying, "Kids today...." then that was when I would officially be "old". I started saying that around age 25! LOL! :eek: