Oh don't worry, I'm home now and almost back to 100%. Off the pain pills as of last night, though I'm being good and still laying down to rest on a regular basis. They say the fatigue could last for weeks or even months.

Stay rested clod, let yourself recover.

I'm still amazed that any germ on Earth was silly enough to pick a fight with Clodfobble's Brain.

I'd wanted to start a brand new thread about this, called "Shit that is annoying the fuck out of you", but I can't figure out how to do it via forum app.

An old cow orker of mine works for Walmart. She just posted on FB, they had seven people walk out with groceries without paying tonight.

We'd worked together back in the '80s, and I remember her as a tough, no-nonsense kind of woman who was for the people. But fucking Walmart seems to have taken its toll. Today, she says to the grocery stealers, because of you, prices will go up.

Of all retailers, Walmart is able to take these kinds of hits.

I dunno that I agree with that kind of thinking, Blue.
That's like saying it's okay to key someone's car, as long as it's a Merc. Because you know, they can afford it.

Honest people already pay a shoplifting surcharge. Seems wrong to think we want to pay any more. And yes, I do count myself as honest. I've only deliberately shoplifted as a teen, sneaking pick & mix sweets up my sleeve as well as putting them into the bag I was paying for. I'll admit to times as an adult where I've not owned up to a mistake by a shopkeeper or cashier. But I've felt bad about it (because that, like, helps...)

I feel for people who can't afford to eat. I've been near that in the past. Not living here and not while posting on the Cellar. But were these people honestly starving, or were they freeloading?

Oh and while I'm at it - mothers, you know you are going to a supermarket.
You know you have a child.
Feed it BEFORE you get there.
Don't hand over an empty packet to the cashier all smug because you weren't stealing after all. And yes, those grapes and cherries ARE stolen, because no-one weighs your child.
We never got fed when we were out shopping. We had three meals a day at set times. And no, it didn't stop me getting fat, and my bro is a bit porky these days, but my ex-sister is rail thin; evidence you make your own choices when you grow up.

Gosh, I've come across really harsh today haven't I?
I think I'll kick Diz downstairs now, just to get a hat-trick.

Even if they want to "stick it to the man" they aren't, they are sticking it to their neighbors. The walton family won't be stuck, they'll adjust as needed to maintain their margins.

Lower wages, higher markup, squeezing suppliers, leaning on municipalities for tax breaks and incentives.

People are too stupid for their own good.

Major slip up on the budget on my part. Thought we were breaking even -- somehow the second credit card was in my blind spot to the tune of four digits. :( Argh. Feeling like a major idiot right now. Live and learn, I guess -- we're still adjusting to having one income and belatedly adjusting our spending habits.

Over here it's cheaper to take out a bank loan to pay off the credit, if you can.

Sent by thought transference

My daughter turns 21 this coming Saturday. She emailed awhile ago to say that she has plans out in Colorado and won't be home. But she would greatly appreciate some money as her gift, because she resigned one job and now has only one job left, in retail (bridal gowns). She is still engaged to Ghostbuster/Samurai/Fraudulent SSI Boy.

I contact her to keep communication open so that she knows she has somewhere to go when she wakes up to the fact that her fiance isn't particularly connected with reality and is potentially dangerous.

It is what it is, but so horribly not what I'd hoped for her. I mean, this guy told her that he never drinks because he's former Special Ops and his body is a lethal weapon registered with the US Government. Sounds like the used car salesman in True Lies. It's so upsetting.

Having a hard time tonight. So sick of being sick. That is all.

I've been thinking about you Ortho. Even when I'm not on the computer. I hope that brings a little light to your thoughts. Of course, I'm not the only one either, so maybe even a ray of sunshine. xxx I hope you can have a good rest and feel a bit better in the morning.

Thank you, Ali. It's late here and I have to be up in 5 hours and sleep isn't going to happen, but I'm trying to rest. I admit I'm apprehensive about my upcoming scan, but everyone in my family is maxed out with stress and I can't add to that. Especially when it's a 'don't borrow trouble' sort of thing, except the trouble is already here.

I hope you're recovering from the illness that brought you home early. Hope you're feeling better. xxx

Just say "Fuck it; I'm not sick". Any treatment that makes you sick or miserable is out the door, jack. I have found great contentment in no longer worrying about my lesions & tumors.

Don't worry, be happy!!! Ignorance is bliss.

Embrace your future son-in-law. Become his best buddy. Then you can slip him something that shouldn't show up on autopsy. BTW, maybe we can introduce my son to your daughter? Hmmmm

Being sick
 

A few years back, one of my clients came in and I was telling her that my Mom was at the hospital, and we were frantically rushing abut to get support for her. My Mom on the other hand, was so sure she'd get the best care because she'd paid taxes all her life and therefore she was 'special' and was entitled to it. This client looks at me and says "Lisa, we're all special" Never took people for granted after that.

“You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection”
― Gautama Buddha

Fucking stupid bastard internet.

Still barely functioning. Six weeks, 5 engineers and now it's back with BT fault management to identify where the problem lies.

Yesterday they altered the signal to noise ratio...instead of helping it made it worse. No idea if this post will even go through. Most of my attempts at posting don't these days. Can't stream anything. Can't download anything. barely able to access the cellar or emails. Most attempts at sending an email fail.

yesterday, during the few minutes at a time when the connection is working, it was registering speeds of 0.33 mbps. Since they altered the signal to noise ratio that's dropped to 0.11 mbps.

Did a ping test last week and was getting 9 or 10 request timeouts per 5 minutes.

Six fucking weeks. Feeling very cut off from the world.

At one point, after a four day period of no internet at all (one of many) the engineer managed to get it 'working' and the first thing that happened after he left was my computer shutting down and on rebooting being locked out by a ransomware virus because my anti-virus/malware software can't update. It was such a bad one I couldn;t even boot up in Safe Mode with command prompt. Took the computer shop 2 full days to figure out a way in. Cost: £60
And because I can't really use the internet for my work here, I now have to travel into Uni and use the postgrad study room a couple of times a week. - that's a four hour round trip and costs between £5 and £7 depending on whether I go by bus or train. Instead of spending £5 a month travelling to my supervision meetings, I'm spending £40 a month to be able to work.

No point my changing supplier: I've been back and forth between Talktal;k and BT and haven;t noticed much of a difference in quality. Out in the sticks, with old wiring and a small overcrowded exchange: that would be the same regardless of hwo I went with. Not getting caught in a 12 month contract with a higher bill for no improvement.

Just....I dunno man I am just feeling so low right now.



[eta] bloody hell it posted!