I give up
 

I hate school, I always have. Now I have to take full time college classes along with working full time so that I can afford those classes. I don't have time/energy/motivation to get the grades I need in those classes. I don't have a career I'm interested in, and I cannot stand writing paper after paper after paper. I'm burned out. Done. Fine`. All I want to be able to do is work (yes I like my job) and curl up in my boyfriend's arms every night. I can't even sleep with him regularly anymore now that he had to move back to his parents so that he could go back to school. He got in huge major trouble this weekend b/c we crashed at his house Sat. night after a party and we slept in the same bed. He's 21 for goodness' sake, he was drunk and we were only there to sleep. When he was on his own I could drive over to his house when I was feeling rotten and sleep with him. Now I don't even know how to get to his house, and even if I did' we can't do that. Renting a hotel room seems tawdry and forced. And the last time I really needed him at night (I'm a bit insominactic-- word?) I called and his answer? "Honey its late and we have class in the morning, plus where would we sleep together? I miss you but we can't." Its logical, but I can't do this any more. I need him.

Sorry, sometimes I freak out a little much. :redface:

Don't be sorry - I reckon that's normal. I wanted to give some meaningful and insightful advice when I read you first post, but "hang in there" sounded really shallow. That's what I think you should do, though. It will be tough, but it will work out. Good luck.

I know how you feel - I was a husband and father of three while working a full-time job and a part-time one AND going to college. IT totally sucks, but suck it up, get it done and you WILL come out on the other side alive. Now that I have my degree (two actually) no one can ever take that away from me and I am very proud that I did it. Oh, did I mention that my wife refused to work and cheated on me too? Whatever its over now and I am better for having gone through it. Hang tight and good luck.

There truly is life on the other side of school. It's just one of those things in life that suck so much when you're mucking through it but once it's done.. you're so glad you did it.

Keep your chin up, morethanpretty. As yesman pointed out, no one can take your education away from you. This hard work will someday pay off.

By the way, does your school offer free career counseling? I've seen many a student benefit from the services ours offers. Check it out if you haven't already.

:)

(and yesman? the wife who refused to work and cheated on you? Yikes. You're not still with her, are you?)

If you and he are in love and in it for the long run, then tough it out. There's plenty of time down the road to boff each other in the comfort of your own love nest. In the meantime, don't you have a car or friends with a place? :cool:

We have a car but our parking place is mired in mud :(
It would be weird to have sex at a friend's place dontja think (i do, besides we don't).
Yeah we have free career counsling, I have the brochure in my backpack, I just have to find time to go.
Well I had a convo w/ my b/f last night about my feelings and how I just wanted to quit. He pointed out that we only have little over a month left...doesn't seem so bad now. I have alot of catching up to do though. But the easy way isn't always the best way, so I guess I'll keep goin for now.

(MTP) You just muddle, push, drag, punch, kick and/or pull your way through it - You WILL be so much better off for it. I'm rootin for ya!! !! !!


Shawnee, thats a whole different thread. Actually I don't know for sure if I posted any of that story. Maybe I did in lookouts last year. ANYWAY, no believe it or not, she asked me to leave and I was gone within the hour. Now she is still begging me to come back. Needless to say, that is not going to happen.

Figured out what she lost, eh? Sorry, not trying to hijack, that just made me go hmm. Best of the world to you!

Yeah so I walked into my Humanities class on Fri. and discovered that I had a MLA paper due that day. I had a headache and had to work an 9 hr shift, and then had to work a double on Sat (with a headache) at work b/c Yo didn't want to close.
On the bright side...my b/f and I are seriously looking at places to move to, possible at the end of the semester...thats the goal anyway.

Hang tight - you're perspective on time will change as you get older - You are sooo very close, yet may not realize it. Oh and if you need any papers - I have a few "A" papers from my college days. They're to be used as "reference material ONLY" - of course ;)

What type of degree are you working on? I'm zero help with anything in the arts, but if it's at least partially related to science I can offer advice. I'm in an honors frat here at Pitt and one of the big things we do is tutoring/student counciling (admin figured that some students might take advice better from fellow students). We see kids in there from time to time with stories similar to yours, and we help them streamline their schedules so that they can make the most of what they have to work with.
Definately stick it out though, school comes to an end and parents can be sidestepped in due time.

9th...I did say this at first but I really should be more specific/clear. My only desire is to help people, I want to look into getting a degree in criminal justice, specifically to work in CPS, maybe APS. Alas b/c of my schedule I haven't really gotten a chance to really look into it. Ironic huh? Up until the very end of my senior HS year I thought I wanted to be a nurse. But I can say with confidence that I don't. I didn't even submit to going to college until about mid-July when my family finally wore me down. Its not really that I can't manage my time...its that I have it but don't utilize it properly. Also I'm so sleep deprived I fall asleep really easily and then don't wake up. The headaches don't help at all.

If you have anything papers over a specific culture I could probably use it. send to mlgtrumpet@yahoo. Don't worry about me plagerizing, I took a vow my senior year not to cheat, so far so good. BTW many of the higher ranked students in my class cheated and I did too (I was 6th in the end), up until a certain point. I'm not really proud of it but I'm also not regretful, it happened and I wasn't alone...sorta leveling the playing field I guess. My whole school had a problem w/ cheating, I saw it often in my peer tutoring class, I eventually gave up trying to stop it, although I had 2 students kicked out for disrespect. Its disturbing to see so much of it but I doubt that it is worse than in the past.