I think my Number is UP
 

A lot of weird things goingon since Jan 1st, mostly things dealing with death and loss; my cat died right in front of me, THREE people I know from meetings have died (one woman 52 - she had them take her off the vent; a man in his sixties - had a heart attack, got fixed up, the next week said, "If you don't see me it's coz I had another heart attack!" and he did - and died; and a 28 year old who OD'd leaving two kids under 2 years) AND a friend from my old married days was diagnosed in Dec and died in Jan (she was 52).

I am really thinking about this. The 28 year-old who OD'd has a last name one letter away from my last name. When they told me he was dead I thought they were talking about my cousin...

How to dispell all this negative energy?

Oh man....that's scary stuff.

These things come in threes , you should be safe

I think my number is 7.

Same thing happened to me recently Bri, with car accidents though, not deaths. Seemed like every other day for a while there I was seeing car accidents happen, or just missing seeing them happen and getting stuck in the mess. I actually said something to Jim, sorta like your post.... just wasn't comfortable with the goings on.
Fizzled out though... just went away. Haven't seen an accident in weeks. You'll be fine too.

You're the survivor Bri, not the victim.

we should all agree to put a line in our wills to notify the cellar in the event of our demise.

i find that the mere mention of this fear exorcises the demon, B. you're cool now.....breathe easy.

My dad used to say "you never hear the one with your name on it." The fact that you are hearing it all around you would mean to me that, while it is unnerving, you are safe.

You've touched on something that bugs me. I don't want to leave anything when I'm gone: posts, blogs, pix, whatever. Notifying friends that I won't be back - even if nobody would otherwise notice - is just plain courtesy. But how to accomplish it without giving a stranger usernames and passwords now? Anyone have a thought?

And it does seem that naming the problem undoes the bad juju, so rely on it to carry you through, Brianna.

you gotta figure that if you die suddenly, someone will go through your computer.

create a file on your desk top called WILL AND TESTAMENT

put a line in it about sending an email to undertoad at cellar dot org announcing your departure.

Sure, put it in your will. Nobody gets nuthin until your wishes are respected by the executer.;)

I will be redoing my will soon. Dare me to do just that?

I have a logic bomb planted in a server I rent at a colocation facility. It monitors the status of my life insurance policies and, when it detects that a claim has been filed, it'll go and wipe out all my internet postings and cancel my accounts.

...I can't decide if SteveDallas is being serious or not. Part of me is really pretty sure such a thing isn't possible, but part of me thinks maybe he's got enough geek cred to be able to pull off something like that.

Brianna, hon, you know as well as I do ...

People you meet at meetings, those kind of meetings especially, are typically not the picture of health. (Notice since you speak of both males and females I'm presuming these are the sorts of meetings where when you get up to speak the whole crowd shouts "Hi Brianna" at you before you tell your story. If I'm wrong and these are lower key survivor meetings where you sit in a circle and hug and cry at the end after meeting your power animal, well, pretty much the same things apply, but the level of sympathy is a lot different.)

The period highest risk for another heart attack is within a month of a heart attack.

And your OD chick? Recreational ODs are the cost of doing business.

Sometimes coincidences are just coincidences.

Sorry for your losses.

But Why?

I worry more about the stuff I write while I'm alive.

I'm not all that worried about the backwash that occurs after I login to the great message board in teh Sky.