The sunny side of life gives me sunburn!
 

It seems that lately people keep telling me I should be grateful for what I do have. Unfortunately, Pollyanna I'm not. Deep in my brain I KNOW that the glass is not only half empty, its probably completely empty. I don't believe there's a reason for everything and things always turn out for the best. I think evil aliens are messing with our lives just for kicks and the only reason they do it is because it amuses them.

And I am a material girl at heart. I want a warm winter coat, a laptop with all the latest bells and whistles, cable TV with Showtime, on demand movies, HBO, and Animal Planet. I also want a Jaguar. Car that is. :violin:

There are days when I work on cultivating a good attitude, but I have a deep mental twist that demands that now and then I just let the old bad ass-I deserve more-and I'm right-and you're stupid attitude take over. I try to stay away from innocent people when I'm having one of those days.

Does anyone else have difficulty always being chirpy or am I even wierder than I thought?

Sam - I'm having a few of those days lately myself.

It helps if I remember that I'm not a beggar in Calcutta, but just (helps, I mean)

aren't you a friend of Bills??? maybe it's meeting time???

my father hates me. he always has - from the moment of my birth I have intruded upon his happiness and personal fortune. He reminds me of this daily but I let him do it. With every breath I take, I recall how much he hates my very essence.

I've been trying to overcome the furnace of his loathing for years and years and I am losing the fight right now.

how's that for self pity? :)

I think it's normal to feel that way, occasionally. Except for the Jaguar. That's just weird. Any self-respecting dreamer would want a Lamborghini. ;)

As to the evil aliens I firmly believe they are coming back (all you Mayan followers are WRONG) Dec 24 of this year, and I believe that I am a specimen they will want to take back for further research. Frankly, I cannot WAIT! I will be the best alien house pet EVER.

p.s. Sorry to post over you, Bri. :(

post over what? my whine-fest?

I do it to myself - I'm just XXtra sensitive today. i work so hard for him to not bother me...but lately I'm losing AND IT'S MY OWN FAULT!

now. I don't want to take away from Sammy here. Go for it, kiddo!

THAT'S a whine-fest? Girl, you don't know from whine-fest. ;)

:comfort: to you both.

Yeah, Bill's my buddy. Did you know he experimented with LSD and was often unfaithful to Lois? Lois returned the favor by having an affair with one of Bill's sponsees.

True!

But I'm going to chair a meeting at noon anyway. I don't think the topic is going to be gratitude, either.

i.m., good luck in your new career as alien house pet. Just make sure you don't fall down any black holes! ;)

An always chirpy person is weird...:neutral:

Brianna: I'm sorry to hear how your father feels about you. Is there a way you can stay away from him? I hope you'll feel better soon. It sucks how someone's feelings affect ours.

thanks, Lola Bunny.

I really can't stay away for too long as he's 82 and needs my help sometimes (although he would say I need HIS help!) I just have to learn to have dinosaur skin around him. he's a toxic person.

I guess we differ here. I think you can choose not to associate with toxic people - even relatives. I'd either let him get by on his own - or if you really can't go that route, tell him to stfu when he gets toxic.

Please to explain how any of those things will make you happy.

Having money doesn't make you happy, but it sure makes unhappiness more comfortable. ;)

Why in the fuck should you be grateful for what you have?

you have an employer who blatantly breaks the law re pay/hours/everything, but you can't report him because there's nothig else out there....

you have a disability retraining claim thingy that's causing you enough stress to put anyone back onto disability....

you have a friend with schizophrenia who's worryingly ill and dropped off the radar

and you're in a clique with reblicans in denial...

What's not to hate? ;)

I'm pretty sure I wouldn't be grateful. But being pollyanna helps you drag yourself out of it. it does me, eventually. Once I've had time to dismiss all the wankers.

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Well, most of that stuff might make me happy for a day or two, but the warm winter coat would make me happy until at least March or April. :p: