If you do not want me here...
 

I guess that is Ok. I am not welcomed on most sites. And I get viewed as a troll. I just want to belong. Nobody reads this; and it will not matter; but i have feelings too...

I have made some mistakes... I miss what I never had. and now this will be a problem...

I guess I can eat my lunch in the park; and watch everyone else have fun...all the happy couples...yet I am teh circus animal typing.... Fine...I will leave... I did nothing wrong. I just had no one else to reach out to... goodbye...pammmm.

I was just about to post about some weird drama of my own. But I've got nothin' on you, Pensive Pam! I just don't have that flair.

See. That's the stuff.

Well, it is not about flair. I don't have it; so do buy into it. i am jut lost; a bit drunk...but am finding myself...i wish things were different...but then i would not be me. i understand why mr. undertoad had to bann me. I do not blame him. i guess i would bann myself... and what is beautiful to may may miss you...like summer showers...i made a some major fuck ups...but i am glad to be back. i know what peopel will say about me...and i wish i could say that it does not bother me...but it does...............pam.

I've missed u the most; and it hurt me to hve to go away; but it was undertoads decisoin. damn i am drunk. but i still care. why?? I just wanted to post about how i feel. my disrespect for undertoad was my fault. i take responsiblity for that...

i just wish it had not been 6 months...so sad.... adn no one cares...do they?? i just wish...

pam//////////////

Wait, what?
I think I need to go back to bed for a while.

Please do not leave. I remember you from last year when I was here. You always were pleasant. We are all safe here; yet every time I post here I fear I may be banned. So I am risking this post for you...as I do not have much to risk anyway...but it does not mean that I do not care...

Pam.

If you aren't insufferably annoying, you won't be banned. The rules are pretty simple.

What I don't understand is your continuing to return.

Yes you do, wolf. You know why she comes back.

Yes, I do know. But that doesn't mean I understand it.

It's like hitting the reset button on attention poster-of-easy-virtue. Either that or setting the bar astronomically high.

Hi Wolf. Are you still looking for work?? It's rough out there, everywhere. I try not to get too down about it; but at times it is just hard to have hope...

What types of jobs are you looking into?? I am hoping to at least get some seasional employment...even if it is at a department store...

Wishing you the best,
Pam.