Fucking Hell
 

I thought the fact that she was posting here meant that it was going to be ok :( I'm 4 hours away, but i can't go on Thursday at that time. It's exactly the same time as my boys' school team swim meet and I'm the coach.

fucking hell. fuck.

Maybe we should have a virtual wake here at the cellar.

I'm awake and drinking when i should be asleep and not. does that count? :cry: I won't drink too much, though. I want to, but if nothing else, I owe Bri that

fucking fucking shit

I'm also awake and drinking and I shouldn't be but FUCKING HELL

Having my own wake in my own way

Crying is allowed

bollockigshittingmotherfuckingcuntinghell. It must have been an accident. She was so very sad but loved her boys so much

I can't be there Thursday either. Job/classes won't permit. I can't miss even ONE more clinic through June 30 or I will get the boot from the Accreditation Council for Graduate Medical Education.

Shit shit shit.

At what point is it not worth it? I voted in favor of family/relationships many years ago and found myself fucked over.

It's always lose/lose.

If we get a snow day i can make it -assuming the roads are clear enough. otherwise I will be there in spirit. omg.

I keep reviewing, in my mind, recent posts of hers that I now look at as 'indicators' (I know Monday morning quarterback psychologist) some stick out in my mind as being particularly significant, but speculating on the hows takes me down awful roads.

I know she was sad and I hope it was an accident.

Trill gave everyone of you..ALL of you plenty of notice. Take the responsibilty for IGNORING it.

wow.

I include myself.

I suppose we all hoped that she would survive the recent hell she was suffering

Im sorry for my harsh words. My story could so easily have ended like hers.

Um...no?