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Originally Posted by xoxoxoBruce
I wish I had a solution, short of buying a couple of teens from the Far East, but it sounds like a no win situation to me.
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You are a truly insightful and contemplative person, my friend. And yeah, it does, in fact, require a major realignment of my head and guts to be on this path. Its damn difficult, but the rewards are pretty nice. Few and far between, but nice when they occur. But in saying that, I'm only talking about the extramarital goodies. There are benefits within the marriage that tend to outweigh the gut churning stuff for me. First and foremost, we are largely much more attentive to each other now than we have been in years. Second, and as I note above to Jinx, we have more sex with each other than we have in years. Sexual behavior tends to spawn more sexual behavior, to put it bluntly...even within our marriage.
I'm sure that what I wrote to start this thread comes off as whining, but keep in mind what I always say about much of what I write here: I use this forum to clear my head out, to "verbalize", as it were, things for myself as much as Cellarites. Honestly, how many people here give a damn about my bizarre lifestyle? Few, I'm sure...but the people here who I consider my friends, even confidantes, make it more than a worthwhile exercise for me to pour it all forth.
Right now I have a beautiful wife, a beautiful girlfriend who is currently running a bit chilly, but who still came to see me play tonight and gave me lovely soft kisses, and a couple of other intriguing prospects on the launch pad. If I can just stop worrying about the numbers game, I ought to be in the tall cotton.
Everything is a process. So is polyamory. And speaking of processes...Iggy, come spend a weekend in KC!
