Will I Stay or Will I Go?

[Aliantha]

I'm glad so much of the drama is over for you IM. I don't think I would have stuck at it for that long. No job is worth that level of shit.

Onwards and upwards mate. That's the only way to go.

[ZenGum]

Classic ... man, that boss is a prick. And an idiot, losing his two most experienced staff. But mostly a prick.

[infinite monkey]

thank, classic. I do remember how miserable things were for you and I was (and really am now!) glad you got to move on.

I found out from Cap and Fire 1.0 (we talked for over 2 hours last night) that I should appeal. I really don't want to but we are unsure if that is akin to quitting, in their effed up rules world that they only follow as it suits them.

So I have to call later and make an appt for tomorrow. Then one more trip to get my stuff (even the bestest appeal in the world ain't gonna save me) and it's over.

Parts of my house are now cleaner than they've been in a long time, which feels really good...so there's that.

And as so many have said, including Cap and Fire 1.0: I'm going to be so much better. Right now making myself move is hard, once I'm going I'm doing well. I also need to give myself a tiny break on worrying about the next job. I realized i left my old job on a friday and started at my (still) current job the next monday...I was so excited. Hmmph.

[infinite monkey]

Not that anyone gives a flying fuck but my appointment with madness is tomorrow. I must find mirth and indifference in my little box of goodies.

After that, I promise to expand my feelings of compassion and empathy and watch a video about staying in the moment and feeling for the world around you.

After I go to church.

And confession.

And maybe another few days in la la land so as to erase the damage of a daily dose of 'a little too much fucking compassion if you ask me.'

[glatt]

What do you mean by appointment with madness? Going back to appeal so you can get unemployment? Or do you really mean you're going to lose your marbles. Truly gone fishing, toys in the attic, over the rainbow, batshit.

[infinite monkey]

I have my appointment, as I said before, to 'appeal' so I can be sure there's not some little hidden caveat that if I don't 'appeal' it will be the same as quitting.

I have to jump through hoops to get what I earned; no luxury of 'oh well fuck it I'll just quit or go back or quit or go back.'

And I'm not happy about it and I'm a little angry.

I wait for the preaching to turn into actual action. I won't hold my breath.

[glatt]

I'd be a lot angry.

[infinite monkey]

thanks for the compassion glatt. you actually have always been a caring person and i appreciate that.

for most peoplr, it's just when they feel like it.

[Pete Zicato]

Originally Posted by infinite monkey

Not that anyone gives a flying fuck…

We all give a flying fuck, IM. Maybe even two or three.

[orthodoc]

Originally Posted by infinite monkey

for most people, it's just when they feel like it.

Or it's quiet concern that doesn't always show up on the board but is felt nonetheless. Because sometimes there's so much exhaustion that even posting is too much. But the concern is there.

[DanaC]

Or it's concern felt whilst reading the site on a phone and not wanting to post until at a proper computer...

IM: you know damn well we care.

[infinite monkey]

thanks. i was feeling sorry for myself and i wasn't fit for public consumption yesterday.

it will be ok. i didn't expect to feel so crappy, but i'll get through it.

[glatt]

Good luck today.

Did I mention they are fuckers? Just remember that. It's them. Not you.

[Chocolatl]

Best of luck, and lots of strength.

[limey]

Originally Posted by infinite monkey

...
it will be ok ... i'll get through it.

Remember you said this. It is true. Hold these thoughts.

Sent by thought transference