What's upsetting you today? - Page 200

LabRat · 12-12-2008, 05:13 PM

No advice, just want you to know I am sending you thoughts and love from across the pond. We all fuck up now and then. If I was there, I'd hold your hair back for ya, make you drink a big glass of water, then tuck you in.

Aliantha · 12-12-2008, 05:21 PM

I second what UT says. Go to bed and make decisions with a clear head. you can't make good decisions when you've been drinking, no matter how seasoned you are.

Sundae · 12-12-2008, 08:49 PM

Am interested to find I threw up twice. Will have to go check the toilets just in case.

I went to A&E.
After waiting for 2 hours to be seen, the doctor advised me he was going to call the Crisis Team. Yeah, they really helped last time I was suicidal - called me on my landline 24 hours after my GP advised them I was alone and afraid and felt unable to go home.

Meh - you get what you pay for.
In the end I walked out. Shoulda listened to UT and just slept it off (as I intend to now, £10 poorer in taxi fares).

I shoulda asked them to breathalyse me. I reckon it would have been a record. But because I presented myself (yes I heard the whole conversation) they didn't think I was in any danger. Not that I'm boasting - if I could drink less I'd be a much happier person.

Right.
Sort life out.
Tomorrow.
Sorry - today.
13 December is turning point for me. No more unhappy.

Thanks for being there people. I appreciate it.

monster · 12-12-2008, 09:17 PM

SG, you know your parents know. Can you try to let them in to help? They want to so badly but they respect your pride too much to just wade in. You could do with some good friends on hand right now, and there are times when your parents can be good friends and I suspect this may be one of those times for you.

Sundae · 12-12-2008, 09:35 PM

Ah, I have this issue with my Mum.
All through my childhood and especially those painful teenage years she would throw any confidences back at me when I was at my lowest.

"Look at the state of your room! No wonder Julie didn't want to be your partner in Drama!"

[Situation created for example - everyone wanted to be my partner in Drama because I wasn't cool but I was a good actress. For a 14 year old.]

If I let her in now, I risk being hurt really, really badly. I'd prefer tp dance around the elephant for a while. Who knows, maybe I can just wish it away. I have a feeling my parents would prefer that too.

monster · 12-12-2008, 09:44 PM

What about just your dad?

monster · 12-12-2008, 09:46 PM

....can you explain to him why you're afraid of letting your mum in?

xoxoxoBruce · 12-13-2008, 02:48 AM

You know as well as I do you're not drinking to feel good, you're drinking to feel bad... punishment. Knock it the fuck off.

Griff · 12-13-2008, 06:54 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Sundae Girl

Oh chaps I am so unhappy.
Feel a bit grim.

Deserve to.
Have had a bottle of vodka today if you count 24 hours.
In fact if you count 24 hours it's been about 30 units (max advised for a man a week is 21)

I'm not going to preach, just make an observation. It is all the rage now to re-learn how to drink. This assumes that alcohol isn't completely toxic to us. I still have a little voice in my head that says I could learn to drink reasonably. In my case, that voice is a cruel deceiver.

classicman · 12-13-2008, 10:54 AM

Good for you Griff that "little deceiver" is to me, also known as the voice of addiction. Do not listen.

limey · 12-13-2008, 11:00 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Sundae Girl

....Wake up and hide the evidence again

This is the sentence that gives me the chills, SG. What sort of "again" is that? Again like last night? Again like the last time the parents were away? Again like last Friday? Again like the last time life spiralled down into depression?
How can we help you to stop doing it again? How can you help yourself to stop? Because you know you can stop, and you are worth helping.

Sundae · 12-13-2008, 02:43 PM

Back in the land of the living.
Sigh.

Going to really work at it this time.
If I'm not constantly ashamed of my behaviour maybe I can let my family in more genuinely. I do love them, we are close, but the dancing around doesn't help.

Well - it would if it were literal - exercise!
And that's what I'm going to do tomorrow - get out and have a good long walk. I'll come back soggy, mind - we're having torrential downpours here at the moment.

Trilby · 12-13-2008, 03:51 PM

Sundae--if it helps any, I was on a three day binger from tuesday until friday. i called the AA helpline,, my mom and dad (I spent last night at their house so if I had a seizure they would be there to take me to ER) and yeah, today sucks, but I'm not drinking today. Oh, and I had about a pint of vodka every hour or two. from tues to friday. Yeah, the withdrawal was insane. I love you. I am here for you,, such as my self is of any help. you are NOT alone.

Griff · 12-13-2008, 04:13 PM

Please keep it together ladies. This is the worst time of year, but you can see it through. We all care about you very much. g

limey · 12-13-2008, 04:49 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Sundae Girl

Back in the land of the living.
Sigh.

Going to really work at it this time.
If I'm not constantly ashamed of my behaviour maybe I can let my family in more genuinely. I do love them, we are close, but the dancing around doesn't help.

Well - it would if it were literal - exercise!
And that's what I'm going to do tomorrow - get out and have a good long walk. I'll come back soggy, mind - we're having torrential downpours here at the moment.

Sometimes a walk in a filthy downpour is great as long as you've a warm house and dry clothes to come home to.
As Griff said, it is a tough time of year for all sorts of reasons and being out of work in winter really Really REALLY REALLY sucks. Try to get yourself a routine going SG - exercise, go to library for a scour of the job pages, or just a good read, is there anywhere you can volunteer (I know you've considered this) ... Hang in there SG - we're all here for you.
And Bri - good on you for calling on the resources you've got - that's a hard decision to make.

to you both.
did I say the jobless thing really sux?

12-12-2008, 05:13 PM	#2986
LabRat twatfaced two legged bumhole Join Date: Jun 2004 Posts: 3,143	No advice, just want you to know I am sending you thoughts and love from across the pond. We all fuck up now and then. If I was there, I'd hold your hair back for ya, make you drink a big glass of water, then tuck you in. __________________ Strength does not come from how much weight you can lift, or how many miles you can run. It comes from knowing that you set a goal, and rose to the challenge. Strength comes from within.

12-12-2008, 05:21 PM	#2987
Aliantha trying hard to be a better person Join Date: Jan 2006 Location: Brisbane, Australia Posts: 16,493	I second what UT says. Go to bed and make decisions with a clear head. you can't make good decisions when you've been drinking, no matter how seasoned you are. __________________ Kind words are the music of the world. F. W. Faber

12-12-2008, 09:17 PM	#2989
monster I hear them call the tide Join Date: Dec 2005 Location: Perpetual Chaos Posts: 30,852	SG, you know your parents know. Can you try to let them in to help? They want to so badly but they respect your pride too much to just wade in. You could do with some good friends on hand right now, and there are times when your parents can be good friends and I suspect this may be one of those times for you. __________________ The most difficult thing is the decision to act, the rest is merely tenacity Amelia Earhart

12-12-2008, 09:44 PM	#2991
monster I hear them call the tide Join Date: Dec 2005 Location: Perpetual Chaos Posts: 30,852	What about just your dad? __________________ The most difficult thing is the decision to act, the rest is merely tenacity Amelia Earhart

12-12-2008, 09:46 PM	#2992
monster I hear them call the tide Join Date: Dec 2005 Location: Perpetual Chaos Posts: 30,852	....can you explain to him why you're afraid of letting your mum in? __________________ The most difficult thing is the decision to act, the rest is merely tenacity Amelia Earhart

12-12-2008, 08:49 PM	#2988
Sundae polaroid of perfection Join Date: Sep 2005 Location: West Yorkshire Posts: 24,185	Am interested to find I threw up twice. Will have to go check the toilets just in case. I went to A&E. After waiting for 2 hours to be seen, the doctor advised me he was going to call the Crisis Team. Yeah, they really helped last time I was suicidal - called me on my landline 24 hours after my GP advised them I was alone and afraid and felt unable to go home. Meh - you get what you pay for. In the end I walked out. Shoulda listened to UT and just slept it off (as I intend to now, £10 poorer in taxi fares). I shoulda asked them to breathalyse me. I reckon it would have been a record. But because I presented myself (yes I heard the whole conversation) they didn't think I was in any danger. Not that I'm boasting - if I could drink less I'd be a much happier person. Right. Sort life out. Tomorrow. Sorry - today. 13 December is turning point for me. No more unhappy. Thanks for being there people. I appreciate it.

12-12-2008, 09:35 PM	#2990
Sundae polaroid of perfection Join Date: Sep 2005 Location: West Yorkshire Posts: 24,185	Ah, I have this issue with my Mum. All through my childhood and especially those painful teenage years she would throw any confidences back at me when I was at my lowest. "Look at the state of your room! No wonder Julie didn't want to be your partner in Drama!" [Situation created for example - everyone wanted to be my partner in Drama because I wasn't cool but I was a good actress. For a 14 year old.] If I let her in now, I risk being hurt really, really badly. I'd prefer tp dance around the elephant for a while. Who knows, maybe I can just wish it away. I have a feeling my parents would prefer that too.

12-13-2008, 02:48 AM	#2993
xoxoxoBruce The future is unwritten Join Date: Oct 2002 Posts: 71,105	You know as well as I do you're not drinking to feel good, you're drinking to feel bad... punishment. Knock it the fuck off. __________________ The descent of man ~ Nixon, Friedman, Reagan, Trump.

12-13-2008, 10:54 AM	#2995
classicman barely disguised asshole, keeper of all that is holy. Join Date: Nov 2007 Posts: 23,401	Good for you Griff that "little deceiver" is to me, also known as the voice of addiction. Do not listen. __________________ "like strapping a pillow on a bull in a china shop" Bullitt

12-13-2008, 02:43 PM	#2997
Sundae polaroid of perfection Join Date: Sep 2005 Location: West Yorkshire Posts: 24,185	Back in the land of the living. Sigh. Going to really work at it this time. If I'm not constantly ashamed of my behaviour maybe I can let my family in more genuinely. I do love them, we are close, but the dancing around doesn't help. Well - it would if it were literal - exercise! And that's what I'm going to do tomorrow - get out and have a good long walk. I'll come back soggy, mind - we're having torrential downpours here at the moment.

12-13-2008, 03:51 PM	#2998
Trilby Slattern of the Swail Join Date: Jul 2004 Posts: 15,654	Sundae--if it helps any, I was on a three day binger from tuesday until friday. i called the AA helpline,, my mom and dad (I spent last night at their house so if I had a seizure they would be there to take me to ER) and yeah, today sucks, but I'm not drinking today. Oh, and I had about a pint of vodka every hour or two. from tues to friday. Yeah, the withdrawal was insane. I love you. I am here for you,, such as my self is of any help. you are NOT alone. __________________ In Barrie's play and novel, the roles of fairies are brief: they are allies to the Lost Boys, the source of fairy dust and ...They are portrayed as dangerous, whimsical and extremely clever but quite hedonistic. "Shall I give you a kiss?" Peter asked and, jerking an acorn button off his coat, solemnly presented it to her. —James Barrie Wimminfolk they be tricksy. - ZenGum

12-13-2008, 04:13 PM	#2999
Griff still says videotape Join Date: Feb 2001 Posts: 26,813	Please keep it together ladies. This is the worst time of year, but you can see it through. We all care about you very much. g __________________ If you would only recognize that life is hard, things would be so much easier for you. - Louis D. Brandeis

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