What's upsetting you today? - Page 565

BigV · 12-03-2012, 08:52 PM

I know, right?!

I hear a hot bath calling my name. Back later friends.

Aliantha · 12-03-2012, 09:14 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Trilby

Since I'm putting all my cards on the table let me be clear: Merc was a bad person. I wouldn't surprise me if he was a Klansman. And when I was so clearly sick and depressed and suicidal he had a little helper try to push me off the cliff: who's that you ask? Why, his best buddie, Aliantha! He and Ali ganged up on me and tried, very hard, to get me to go off the edge. Had I died, they'd would've been all "Oh, we never knew!" and secretly doing a jig in the background.

And yea, monster IS a bully. Sorry, but she is. She "just says what's on her mind" - well, honey, so am I. She especially bullies Sundae whenever she gets the chance. That's why Sundae's not around and coincidentally monster went off the radar at the same time.
Tony-I wonder if you even like me a little bit. You ACT like you do but then you had to go and make a remark that drew me back into a bad time with a very bad man---ha ha funny joke, but at my expense and you surely must know what depression feels like, no????? and to have a health care "pro" (I use that term lightly about merc) suggest I kill myself? really? REALLY? if you don't like someone online, great. Fuck them. But to say THAT to a person clearly on the edge?

Like I said.

Wow, I'm surprised my name has been brought up here. I'm not a fan of revisiting the past much, but I truly hope that you don't think those things about me now Trilby. I wasn't in such a good place myself when I first came here, so that's my only excuse. I hope that others as well as you can see that I'm a different person these days and the person you first knew here was nothing like who I really am.

If it means a damn to you, I'm sorry from the bottom of my heart to have ever made such a remark. I honestly don't recall it - which obviously makes it worse since whatever was said has had a huge impact on you - but I can't take it back. I can only say that I hope enough time has passed for you to see that you are valued by me.

Please forgive me.

Aliantha · 12-03-2012, 09:18 PM

Reading the last couple of pages of this thread has really upset me, and I was feeling pretty sad to begin with. Just got off the phone with my Aunt. My uncle who has been a huge part of my life is doing very poorly. He hasn't got much longer on this earth. I saw him last week for the first time since just before Eva was born (so about 2 months ago) and i was shocked at how rapidly he's gone down hill. I am afraid we'll all lose him before a new year comes in, which is way too soon for any of us, but maybe too long for him to wait.

Sometimes things are shitty.

orthodoc · 12-03-2012, 10:27 PM

I'm sorry to hear about your uncle, Ali. This thread took a turn that left me speechless and upset as well, when I read it after work today. I hate what's happened this weekend in these two threads. I've been chemo-brained worse than usual in the past few days and couldn't contribute anything very coherent, and still can't ... I just hope the moon hits a new phase or whatever has to happen for things to settle.

Lola Bunny · 12-03-2012, 10:29 PM

I'm sorry to hear about your uncle, Ali. I didn't know you then, but I think you're a good person now.

Aliantha · 12-03-2012, 10:31 PM

You're doing fine Ortho...on all fronts it seems.

Keep up the good work. xx

That means a lot to me Lola.

Thank you.

xoxoxoBruce · 12-03-2012, 10:37 PM

OK, your uncle is a bummer, but I'm not sorry about your finger.

Aliantha · 12-03-2012, 10:39 PM

I'm going to poke you in the eye with it when it gets better Bruce!

xoxoxoBruce · 12-03-2012, 10:41 PM

I order to get close enough to poke me in the eye, you'll be close enough for make-up sex.

Aliantha · 12-03-2012, 10:44 PM

Not you too!

sexobon · 12-03-2012, 11:42 PM

Not you two!

Can I watch.

Trilby · 12-04-2012, 07:03 AM

I'm sorry.

I was having a tiff. a Big one. A tantrum.

I will never leave you because I'm mainlining you all now and the Intervention failed.

Ali- you HAVE changed and you ARE sweet and i DO like you. It was all just PTSD, it really was- and not to denigrate those with war time ptsd, but I have had some doozies happen to me. we all have. it brought up a lot of shite on my part and I'm abashed at my acting out. I thought I was better; actually, I AM better b.c I used to do that stuff quite frequently.

thanks for all the kinds words.

back to you, sexobon.

orthodoc · 12-04-2012, 07:13 AM

Now it doesn't have to be a blue Christmas. Yay Trilby!!

Lola Bunny · 12-04-2012, 10:55 AM

I'm glad you're feeling better. Well, at least I hope you're feeling better.

Undertoad · 12-04-2012, 03:03 PM

Everyone is allowed a tantrum now and then!!

And if I thought you were super serious, I would have said a lot more and I would have been hurt. But *I* know that *you* know you are loved here, and by me included.

12-03-2012, 08:52 PM	#8461
BigV Goon Squad Leader Join Date: Nov 2004 Location: Seattle Posts: 27,063	I know, right?! I hear a hot bath calling my name. Back later friends. __________________ Be Just and Fear Not.

12-03-2012, 09:18 PM	#8463
Aliantha trying hard to be a better person Join Date: Jan 2006 Location: Brisbane, Australia Posts: 16,493	Reading the last couple of pages of this thread has really upset me, and I was feeling pretty sad to begin with. Just got off the phone with my Aunt. My uncle who has been a huge part of my life is doing very poorly. He hasn't got much longer on this earth. I saw him last week for the first time since just before Eva was born (so about 2 months ago) and i was shocked at how rapidly he's gone down hill. I am afraid we'll all lose him before a new year comes in, which is way too soon for any of us, but maybe too long for him to wait. Sometimes things are shitty. __________________ Kind words are the music of the world. F. W. Faber

12-03-2012, 10:27 PM	#8464
orthodoc Not Suspicious, Merely Canadian Join Date: Oct 2006 Posts: 3,774	I'm sorry to hear about your uncle, Ali. This thread took a turn that left me speechless and upset as well, when I read it after work today. I hate what's happened this weekend in these two threads. I've been chemo-brained worse than usual in the past few days and couldn't contribute anything very coherent, and still can't ... I just hope the moon hits a new phase or whatever has to happen for things to settle. __________________ The greatness of a nation and its moral progress can be judged by the way its animals are treated. - Ghandi

12-03-2012, 10:31 PM	#8466
Aliantha trying hard to be a better person Join Date: Jan 2006 Location: Brisbane, Australia Posts: 16,493	You're doing fine Ortho...on all fronts it seems. Keep up the good work. xx That means a lot to me Lola. Thank you. __________________ Kind words are the music of the world. F. W. Faber

12-03-2012, 10:37 PM	#8467
xoxoxoBruce The future is unwritten Join Date: Oct 2002 Posts: 71,105	OK, your uncle is a bummer, but I'm not sorry about your finger. __________________ The descent of man ~ Nixon, Friedman, Reagan, Trump.

12-03-2012, 10:29 PM	#8465
Lola Bunny Junior Master Dwellar Join Date: May 2011 Posts: 2,728	I'm sorry to hear about your uncle, Ali. I didn't know you then, but I think you're a good person now.

12-03-2012, 10:39 PM	#8468
Aliantha trying hard to be a better person Join Date: Jan 2006 Location: Brisbane, Australia Posts: 16,493	I'm going to poke you in the eye with it when it gets better Bruce! __________________ Kind words are the music of the world. F. W. Faber

12-03-2012, 10:41 PM	#8469
xoxoxoBruce The future is unwritten Join Date: Oct 2002 Posts: 71,105	I order to get close enough to poke me in the eye, you'll be close enough for make-up sex. __________________ The descent of man ~ Nixon, Friedman, Reagan, Trump.

12-03-2012, 10:44 PM	#8470
Aliantha trying hard to be a better person Join Date: Jan 2006 Location: Brisbane, Australia Posts: 16,493	Not you too! __________________ Kind words are the music of the world. F. W. Faber

12-03-2012, 11:42 PM	#8471
sexobon I love it when a plan comes together. Join Date: Oct 2009 Posts: 9,793	Not you two! Can I watch.

12-04-2012, 07:03 AM	#8472
Trilby Slattern of the Swail Join Date: Jul 2004 Posts: 15,654	I'm sorry. I was having a tiff. a Big one. A tantrum. I will never leave you because I'm mainlining you all now and the Intervention failed. Ali- you HAVE changed and you ARE sweet and i DO like you. It was all just PTSD, it really was- and not to denigrate those with war time ptsd, but I have had some doozies happen to me. we all have. it brought up a lot of shite on my part and I'm abashed at my acting out. I thought I was better; actually, I AM better b.c I used to do that stuff quite frequently. thanks for all the kinds words. back to you, sexobon. __________________ In Barrie's play and novel, the roles of fairies are brief: they are allies to the Lost Boys, the source of fairy dust and ...They are portrayed as dangerous, whimsical and extremely clever but quite hedonistic. "Shall I give you a kiss?" Peter asked and, jerking an acorn button off his coat, solemnly presented it to her. —James Barrie Wimminfolk they be tricksy. - ZenGum

12-04-2012, 07:13 AM	#8473
orthodoc Not Suspicious, Merely Canadian Join Date: Oct 2006 Posts: 3,774	Now it doesn't have to be a blue Christmas. Yay Trilby!! __________________ The greatness of a nation and its moral progress can be judged by the way its animals are treated. - Ghandi

12-04-2012, 10:55 AM	#8474
Lola Bunny Junior Master Dwellar Join Date: May 2011 Posts: 2,728	I'm glad you're feeling better. Well, at least I hope you're feeling better.

12-04-2012, 03:03 PM	#8475
Undertoad Radical Centrist Join Date: Jan 2001 Location: Cottage of Prussia Posts: 31,423	Everyone is allowed a tantrum now and then!! And if I thought you were super serious, I would have said a lot more and I would have been hurt. But I know that you know you are loved here, and by me included.

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