And you wonder why I am fucked up??

[pensive pam]

i had to move back to Nj. excuse the spelling as we haveno pwer here; and i wonder howmuch my laptop will hold up; yet i have wieless...and wine...

my mum hates my dad. my dad puts up with it. they only had me to stay together anyway. i am alwys at fault. i get self diagnosed on the internet here. i am viewed as bieng a troll; which i am not because i care. i have 1 candle on my desk...which is a old shitty desk..

i dont' care..and then i get accuesed of being a a man. i shoudl be so lucky. i guess that would solve everything. pepol want me to fight with 'emma.' i do not want to and why do tehy want to see it??

i am sure she is better. i get durnk...amiben...pills....and i wil reget this post. nobody has ever loved me. i never have gottena valentine or floewrs... so what do u want??

sooner or later every1 has a sole...o sincierity that shines thru. why cant u peoleple see that?? i wish ih had my own site. then i would not get bannened. but i would be accpeting because i know i am fucked up. but i am the produt of my parents...and this is why i chose lesbian.. m y parents are fighting right nwo. they hate. i feel. their negative energy rubs off on me....and it upsets me!!!!

so if i am not suitable to be here, so be it...and u say i troller?? no way. i hve seen trollls. adn they are very crafty. i am not. i suckl... and i am a burden... and u thnk i am a joke of of a person....

I just want to die!!!!!!!!!!! money is nothig but paper...paper i do not have....and i am ugly.. scragly hair...broken nails...broekn everythign... be happy pushing me donw..

pam.