Alcoholics Anonymous is a Religion

This past week I came to terms with the fact that I am an alcoholic.
I have been all of my life. Recently I have risked my life with it, risked leaving my wife and son alone... I am an idiot and selfish bastard.
This morning a friend who has a cigar shop came and emptied my wine cellar and took all the alcohol and all of my homemade liquors (ironic hobby, yes?), he will be back for all of the glassware and bar-ware soon.
He is a good friend for getting up early and doing this for me.
I am terrified of what happens next, feel weak and ashamed of lying to myself for all of my life because I have always been a "functional drinker" and have "quit" for so many times and how I bla, bla, bla, bla... even with osteoporosis I drank encouraging bone loss, even with a failing liver, even with meds that...
Now, I don't have anything but my own ability to stick to my convictions to deal with this.
I don't believe in a higher power that controls shit, nothing but will.
My son's well being and the shame of what I have done will be enough, it has to be.