I can't take it any more

[Undertoad]

So J will lend me some money to work this out; but here I am, forgot to eat dinner yesterday in all this. Woke up at 4am, still dead tired tired tired, couldn't go back to sleep. I'm trying to figure out whether I should just drive to work in the morning and settle this out later; but I need to drive into the ghetto Saturday, because now, goes without saying, I actually need the money from that gig.

Dead tired, can't sleep, angry, frustrated, panicky, it's not just all this crap it's everything. I wonder if I should go back on the anti-depressants.