What does THIS mean? :(

[Trilby]

I'm pretty sure I've figured out who he is "in love" with this week. I even have her email address. She's a wanna-be poet, lives in London, on meds and has had several suicide attempts. Just the kind he likes--the nuttier, the better. I email her. I said: Hi, M. great post on the ---Forum. RL is in your neighborhood. have you met up yet?

Now I feel like drinking and then driving my car into a fastfood restaurant. I am lonely and sad and HE is enjoying the first flush of a new love.
i am tempted to do some nasty spells...sooooo tempted.