What's Painful

[Trilby]

nobody--NOBody--takes my concerns seriously.

[skysidhe]

Originally Posted by Brianna

nobody--NOBody--takes my concerns seriously.

Dear Bri,

Please don't waste your time wishing and wanting. I hope you get what you want but in the off chance it's not comming just accept it that it may not come. Some people don't get what they want. I hope you do.

I have recently learned that nobodys problems are more important than their own and you can ask for understanding and a warm compassionate arm but nobody can ever really understand. That is pain. I know.

Can I join this pity party ?because I really need one too.

My short story. I have spent most of most of my adult life caring for others who cannot take care of themselves.I have waisted time loving people I never should have and found myself alone for no other reason that to have spent it on others that is not pain. I never begrudged that. yet...

BUT when I fell ill and having to still take care of people, get up go to work in order to pay the bills feeling like a walking, hurting zombie. To smile and say hi, how ya doing and all the while to know that if I died in my sleep there isn't a soul in the world who would care except for those who still cannot take care of themselves. That wasn't really the painful part either but it's getting close.

The painful part comes when you lay your head on your pillow at night starring into that dark abyss of ' nobody really gives a shit' That is pain. The hard facts. I decided Life for some is a bit'ch then you die . Get over it.

*hug* sorry