I'm in the Hospital

[Juniper]

OK, ok. I am home. I got out in time to drive the hour or so to Columbus and got to see her 2nd cheer performance, have dinner out with another family, and she was glad to be driven home by mom. Went to school today. Now I'm trying to catch up with everything I didn't get done during my little "vacation." UGH, a mountain of laundry! I still need to go get my prescription filled. Going to do that now and do grocery shopping 'cause we're out of everything. Got papers due tomorrow and Wed. - they are written but need a little editing. Life ain't gonna slow down for me so it's a good thing they make drugs.

I must amend that statement. Life won't slow down for me NOW. But I am going to make plans to slow it down in the future. I've been giving serious consideration to my desire to get umptyzillion things done as fast as possible. Been doing it so long I don't know how to change, but I'm going to work on it. Realistically it won't matter if I finish my degree and start my grad program in fall 2010 - it's a 2- year program you HAVE to start at that particular time or else wait another 2 years. So what if I wait another 2 years to start it? In 2 years I might not even care about it anymore. Who knows?

::sigh:: I've worried for so long that people think I'm a slacker, tried to work hard enough that no way could I be called one. But so what if I am a slacker? What does that say about the people who give out labels?

Thanks everyone for the encouraging notes.

[Cloud]

Originally Posted by Juniper

Life won't slow down for me NOW. But I am going to make plans to slow it down in the future. I've been giving serious consideration to my desire to get umptyzillion things done as fast as possible. Been doing it so long I don't know how to change, but I'm going to work on it.

::sigh:: I've worried for so long that people think I'm a slacker, tried to work hard enough that no way could I be called one.

Okay, this is what we're saying, and it sounds like you know it. You can make plans to slow down all you want, but you need to consider slowing down now; at least temporarily.

My blood pressure has been higher than normal lately too, so I'd like to know what they tell you to reduce it.

As far as being a slacker . . . that made me kinda smile. I hate, hate, hate being busy like that. I'm such a slow energy person, that I can only handle a few things at a time. I've struggled with terrible feelings of guilt over that for much of my life, because our society places such value on overachievement and the woman's rule in taking care of everyone else but herself.

You have to take care of yourself first. Let go some of that stuff. Get your family to help with the laundry and other stuff!