How Broke Are You Now? - Page 4

glatt · 07-19-2010, 11:29 AM

I read somewhere that a bowl full of that expensive vinegar, covered with some plastic wrap with holes poked in it, will take care of those fuckers.

Of course, that's like closing the gate when the cow's out of the barn, and you've got no money in the bank to buy that good vinegar.

Shawnee123 · 07-19-2010, 11:32 AM

It's kind of like the Jilt of the Magfly.

squirell nutkin · 07-19-2010, 11:43 AM

I think it was the expensive vinegar that tipped me off. The bottle was half empty and I'd just opened it the day before.

Jilt of the magfly indeed.

toranokaze · 07-25-2010, 03:36 PM

I owe more money that all the money I have made in my entire life.

wanderer · 07-26-2010, 06:07 AM

Lost quite a few bucks in share market last week

Shawnee123 · 07-26-2010, 08:18 AM

I'm trying to scheme a way to get gas for my car so I can get to work the rest of the week. Too broke to work, ain't that the shit? I'll see your irony and raise you a FML.

Soon, soon, soon, things will get better.

Shawnee123 · 07-26-2010, 10:03 AM

Fucking banks. Everything is automated and they can call you two seconds after you withdraw your account, but they don't have the capability to see when funds are available from another check. AND, the money on hold (that I had to ask my mother for, and I was completely ashamed) shows as a fucking debit on my already overdrawn account. So my electric bill wasn't going to get paid, the whole damn reason I had to ask for the money (and for, you know, gas and food because I'm selfish like that). I called and the girl I spoke with called a higher-up who happens to be my third cousin. She said there was nothing they could do about the hold but she WOULD make sure the electric bill wouldn't be returned. Otherwise, temps in my place can reach 100 degrees pretty quickly.

I know why people kill themselves over financial woes. I had to go and fuck up my life by having my 27 year old capped teeth break and having insurance that didn't cover an entire 1800 dollars. I don't know too many people who have 1800 saved up in case they end up looking like a character in Deliverance...and I have, for months now, been robbing peter to pay paul just trying to keep my head above water.

Promises from people that they will try to give me money for having let them live on my couch never come to fruition.

Good guys get fucked.

I'm so distraught and upset and I can't concentrate on anything at work or in my life. I'm tired of doing it all alone, I'm tired of playing Miss Independent and I'm tired of being strong. The choices seem to be: find a way to get in the crossfire of some gang murder in this armpit of a city, or win the lottery. I can tell you which is most likely.

As I side note: to all the attention whores who always remind us how noble they are and the rest of us should be noble like them because they hit the tip jar...good for fucking you. I do what I can, when I have it. Your transparent, self-serving admonitions (and I ain't talking about the mod) don't help those of us who can't do anything at the time, but still sometimes feel the need to find support here at teh Cellar, which I'm sure you think we don't deserve, and it's a special form of tacky redneckiness to want attention and accolades for your contributions to ANYTHING.

Trilby · 07-26-2010, 10:07 AM

shawnee - I don't know what to say but I'm so sorry.

If it helps at all (and it doesn;t, I know) you aren't alone.

Shawnee123 · 07-26-2010, 10:16 AM

No, it does. It's part of how I've been getting through this: knowing that so many people are struggling and I'm not alone is *somehow* comforting. Part of it is too that I never expected to be in this boat again...it hit me out of nowhere. Of course, I will be proactive in the future and get some savings going once I stop drowning, but right now I've got nothing left...not an ounce of hope.

I will be getting a bonus mid-August, which will really help. So I know I still have it better than so many: it just hurts for me, and brings anxiety to me, and wears down every bit of positive energy...leaves me with a constant stomachache.

Thanks Bri. I'm sorry. I just needed to talk about this, and I have no other options. My friends and family irl think I'm jsut a big fuck-up. Which maybe I am. I want to be someone's dumb but loveable housepet. That I would be very good at.

Glinda · 07-26-2010, 11:07 AM

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Originally Posted by Shawnee123

I'm trying to scheme a way to get gas for my car so I can get to work the rest of the week. Too broke to work, ain't that the shit? I'll see your irony and raise you a FML.

I do feel your pain. I'm in the exact same spot this week. Not enough gas to get to work and not a dime in my pocket. I've already sold everything I have of value that someone might buy. And, although I just found a part-time maid job last week, it only pays $9 hour, and it costs over $8 in gas just to get there and back, AND I won't get paid for two weeks. Won't be able to pay my bills this month - first time ever. FFS.

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Originally Posted by Shawnee123

Soon, soon, soon, things will get better.

There is a small bit of hope on the horizon (lots of foreign-language proofreading of election materials), but that doesn't kick in for another month. *sigh*

Trilby · 07-26-2010, 11:14 AM

I can relate to the strain and stress of doing it all alone. I know you, Shaw, have a house with a yard (at least I think you do??) and I do, too. I have to keep everything going - the car (and I'm so stupid about cars) and the plumbing (I've had three basement floods in the past three years) and the appliances (I think my ancient fridge is dying) and the yard (are those gopher holes or snake holes?????) and the never ending bills.

STILL. I have to remember that most of the world lives on less than a dollar a day and only rich people get to eat bread!

I DO still have a roof over my head and food in the house - it may be tube steak instead of porterhouse, but, hey - lots of people don't have clean drinking water....

This isn't meant to 'shame' you or anyone - it's just the process I use to get myself out of a nonproductive funk when I'm in one.

And you always have the cellar!

Good friends and invisible coffee!

Sundae · 07-26-2010, 11:21 AM

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Originally Posted by Shawnee123

There is like a glitch in my brain where I am physically ill when I think of calling them to tell them I'm broke and I'm working on it. Though every fiber of my thinking being says "it's how it works, they'll work with you" and though many people have told me the same thing...it's a fear I can't seem to overcome.

Yup. I've managed it. Not boasting, but it just happened one day.
And yet when I was seeing a Psychiatric Nurse who specialised in addiction, with whom I felt safer than I've ever felt in my life, she tried to convince me to call my debtors in her presence. I couldn't. I physically couldn't. Retching and everything.

Today I called one of the (three remaining) debtors to explain I couldn't pay on the previously arranged date but would pay the day after. I even had a laugh with the chap on the phone.

It will come if you keep trying. Remember all the supplicants you deal with yourself.
The people you talk to about your own payments are simply people pulling down a wage, not judging you.

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Originally Posted by Shawnee123

I'm so distraught and upset and I can't concentrate on anything at work or in my life. I'm tired of doing it all alone, I'm tired of playing Miss Independent and I'm tired of being strong. The choices seem to be: find a way to get in the crossfire of some gang murder in this armpit of a city, or win the lottery. I can tell you which is most likely.

I know you don't want to hear it, but I have SO been there babba.
Even recently, when trying to apply for a Crisis Loan because I wanted to keep making the payments I've been covering from my days in Leicester - and been covering well and living up to my responsibilities even though I incurred them when I was mentally unstable. Only to have them tell me that I received the services and therefore owed the money (I KNOW!) and the Government should not be expected to pay for services received (it's a LOAN which will be repaid!) and I'll have to find another way to pay my agreed payment schedule despite the fact my benefits were taken away with -2 months notice!

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As I side note: to all the attention whores who always remind us how noble they are and the rest of us should be noble like them because they hit the tip jar...

Honestly - I know people don't think like this. They don't. I have personal evidence and you are a valued member of the community. Any organisation dependent on donations has to ask and promote its requests.

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Originally Posted by Shawnee123

I'm sorry. I just needed to talk about this, and I have no other options. My friends and family irl think I'm jsut a big fuck-up. Which maybe I am. I want to be someone's dumb but loveable housepet. That I would be very good at.

You're not a fuckup. Yeah, you do fuckup sometimes. What? I'm supposed to sugar the pill? I've fucked up far worse, especially financially.

YOU as a person are not a fuckup.
YOU as a person found a new job, looked out for a fuckup that probably didn't deserve it.
YOU have made some mistakes (heck, you're a Strawberry Queen, it comes with the job description) but I promise things will get better soon. And even if they don't, you won't hate yourself so much about them.

Be nice to yourself darling. At least you didn't have to borrow cat litter off your parents' friend in the same week you attended a West End show you haven't paid your brother for yet....

Love you x

Shawnee123 · 07-26-2010, 11:32 AM

Thanks for all that, Sundae.

As to the tip jar thing: I think bruce and UT and wolf have every right to bump the thread. We know the place doesn't run for free. It's the consistent month after month "look what I did" that doesnt' sit right with me. There are anonymous donors for giant charities who, apparently, believe the giving is not done to be recognized for the giving.

I begrudge nothing to Tony, that was just a side note about how it feels to me when someone is not particularly reminding others to donate if they can, but saying things like "I gave."

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You're not a fuckup. Yeah, you do fuckup sometimes. What? I'm supposed to sugar the pill? I've fucked up far worse, especially financially.

YOU as a person are not a fuckup.
YOU as a person found a new job, looked out for a fuckup that probably didn't deserve it.
YOU mave made some mistakes (heck, you're a Strawberry Queen, it comes with the job description) but I promise things will get better soon. And even if they don't, you won't hate yourself so much about them.

Be nice to yourself darling. At least you didn't have to borrow cat litter off your parents' friend in the same week you attended a West End show you haven't paid your brother for yet....

Love you x

I love that! Love you too.

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Originally Posted by Glinda

I do feel your pain. I'm in the exact same spot this week. Not enough gas to get to work and not a dime in my pocket. I've already sold everything I have of value that someone might buy. And, although I just found a part-time maid job last week, it only pays $9 hour, and it costs over $8 in gas just to get there and back, AND I won't get paid for two weeks. Won't be able to pay my bills this month - first time ever. FFS.

Heh, I should join the circus the way I've been juggling crap lately.

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Originally Posted by Bri

STILL. I have to remember that most of the world lives on less than a dollar a day and only rich people get to eat bread!

I DO still have a roof over my head and food in the house - it may be tube steak instead of porterhouse, but, hey - lots of people don't have clean drinking water....

This isn't meant to 'shame' you or anyone - it's just the process I use to get myself out of a nonproductive funk when I'm in one.

These are the kinds of things I try to remind myself too...was doing pretty good yesterday and this morning, talking myself through it...that getting on line to see my deposit like that broke some carefully packaged anxiety loose.

Thanks all, you're lovely.

Undertoad · 07-26-2010, 11:46 AM

That's kinda why there are no special tags or anything marking a donor. I admire the places like SomethingAwful where you have to pay to even post, but we are a community, and it becomes something else if it *requires* payment.

Shawnee123 · 07-26-2010, 11:51 AM

Plus, you've always held a top spot in my lottery list, where I'll be so filthy stinking rich I'll not only contribute huge amounts so that all you ever need worry about anymore is Cellar maintenance, I'll be all like "Look what I did, match THAT fuckers." Found money can be low-class that way, and yet still make some people quite content.

07-19-2010, 11:32 AM	#47
Shawnee123 Why, you're a regular Alfred E Einstein, ain't ya? Join Date: Jun 2006 Posts: 21,206	It's kind of like the Jilt of the Magfly. __________________ A word to the wise ain't necessary - it's the stupid ones who need the advice. --Bill Cosby

07-19-2010, 11:43 AM	#48
squirell nutkin has a second hand user title Join Date: Feb 2006 Location: in a Nut House Posts: 2,017	I think it was the expensive vinegar that tipped me off. The bottle was half empty and I'd just opened it the day before. Jilt of the magfly indeed. __________________ And now I'm finished posting.

07-25-2010, 03:36 PM	#49
toranokaze I'm still a jerk Join Date: Oct 2007 Location: Little Mexico Posts: 1,817	I owe more money that all the money I have made in my entire life. __________________ "Without deviation from the norm progress is not possible." - Frank Zappa It is the ignorance of ignorance that lead to the death of knowledge The Virgin Mary does not weep for her son, for he is in paradise. She weeps for the world , for we are in suffering.

07-26-2010, 06:07 AM	#50
wanderer Master of the Domain Join Date: Mar 2010 Posts: 225	Lost quite a few bucks in share market last week __________________ smoke on the water

07-26-2010, 08:18 AM	#51
Shawnee123 Why, you're a regular Alfred E Einstein, ain't ya? Join Date: Jun 2006 Posts: 21,206	I'm trying to scheme a way to get gas for my car so I can get to work the rest of the week. Too broke to work, ain't that the shit? I'll see your irony and raise you a FML. Soon, soon, soon, things will get better. __________________ A word to the wise ain't necessary - it's the stupid ones who need the advice. --Bill Cosby

07-19-2010, 11:29 AM	#46
glatt ™ Join Date: Jul 2003 Location: Arlington, VA Posts: 27,717	I read somewhere that a bowl full of that expensive vinegar, covered with some plastic wrap with holes poked in it, will take care of those fuckers. Of course, that's like closing the gate when the cow's out of the barn, and you've got no money in the bank to buy that good vinegar.

07-26-2010, 10:03 AM	#52
Shawnee123 Why, you're a regular Alfred E Einstein, ain't ya? Join Date: Jun 2006 Posts: 21,206	Fucking banks. Everything is automated and they can call you two seconds after you withdraw your account, but they don't have the capability to see when funds are available from another check. AND, the money on hold (that I had to ask my mother for, and I was completely ashamed) shows as a fucking debit on my already overdrawn account. So my electric bill wasn't going to get paid, the whole damn reason I had to ask for the money (and for, you know, gas and food because I'm selfish like that). I called and the girl I spoke with called a higher-up who happens to be my third cousin. She said there was nothing they could do about the hold but she WOULD make sure the electric bill wouldn't be returned. Otherwise, temps in my place can reach 100 degrees pretty quickly. I know why people kill themselves over financial woes. I had to go and fuck up my life by having my 27 year old capped teeth break and having insurance that didn't cover an entire 1800 dollars. I don't know too many people who have 1800 saved up in case they end up looking like a character in Deliverance...and I have, for months now, been robbing peter to pay paul just trying to keep my head above water. Promises from people that they will try to give me money for having let them live on my couch never come to fruition. Good guys get fucked. I'm so distraught and upset and I can't concentrate on anything at work or in my life. I'm tired of doing it all alone, I'm tired of playing Miss Independent and I'm tired of being strong. The choices seem to be: find a way to get in the crossfire of some gang murder in this armpit of a city, or win the lottery. I can tell you which is most likely. As I side note: to all the attention whores who always remind us how noble they are and the rest of us should be noble like them because they hit the tip jar...good for fucking you. I do what I can, when I have it. Your transparent, self-serving admonitions (and I ain't talking about the mod) don't help those of us who can't do anything at the time, but still sometimes feel the need to find support here at teh Cellar, which I'm sure you think we don't deserve, and it's a special form of tacky redneckiness to want attention and accolades for your contributions to ANYTHING. __________________ A word to the wise ain't necessary - it's the stupid ones who need the advice. --Bill Cosby Last edited by Shawnee123; 07-26-2010 at 10:09 AM.

07-26-2010, 10:07 AM	#53
Trilby Slattern of the Swail Join Date: Jul 2004 Posts: 15,654	shawnee - I don't know what to say but I'm so sorry. If it helps at all (and it doesn;t, I know) you aren't alone. __________________ In Barrie's play and novel, the roles of fairies are brief: they are allies to the Lost Boys, the source of fairy dust and ...They are portrayed as dangerous, whimsical and extremely clever but quite hedonistic. "Shall I give you a kiss?" Peter asked and, jerking an acorn button off his coat, solemnly presented it to her. —James Barrie Wimminfolk they be tricksy. - ZenGum

07-26-2010, 10:16 AM	#54
Shawnee123 Why, you're a regular Alfred E Einstein, ain't ya? Join Date: Jun 2006 Posts: 21,206	No, it does. It's part of how I've been getting through this: knowing that so many people are struggling and I'm not alone is somehow comforting. Part of it is too that I never expected to be in this boat again...it hit me out of nowhere. Of course, I will be proactive in the future and get some savings going once I stop drowning, but right now I've got nothing left...not an ounce of hope. I will be getting a bonus mid-August, which will really help. So I know I still have it better than so many: it just hurts for me, and brings anxiety to me, and wears down every bit of positive energy...leaves me with a constant stomachache. Thanks Bri. I'm sorry. I just needed to talk about this, and I have no other options. My friends and family irl think I'm jsut a big fuck-up. Which maybe I am. I want to be someone's dumb but loveable housepet. That I would be very good at. __________________ A word to the wise ain't necessary - it's the stupid ones who need the advice. --Bill Cosby

07-26-2010, 11:14 AM	#56
Trilby Slattern of the Swail Join Date: Jul 2004 Posts: 15,654	I can relate to the strain and stress of doing it all alone. I know you, Shaw, have a house with a yard (at least I think you do??) and I do, too. I have to keep everything going - the car (and I'm so stupid about cars) and the plumbing (I've had three basement floods in the past three years) and the appliances (I think my ancient fridge is dying) and the yard (are those gopher holes or snake holes?????) and the never ending bills. STILL. I have to remember that most of the world lives on less than a dollar a day and only rich people get to eat bread! I DO still have a roof over my head and food in the house - it may be tube steak instead of porterhouse, but, hey - lots of people don't have clean drinking water.... This isn't meant to 'shame' you or anyone - it's just the process I use to get myself out of a nonproductive funk when I'm in one. And you always have the cellar! Good friends and invisible coffee! __________________ In Barrie's play and novel, the roles of fairies are brief: they are allies to the Lost Boys, the source of fairy dust and ...They are portrayed as dangerous, whimsical and extremely clever but quite hedonistic. "Shall I give you a kiss?" Peter asked and, jerking an acorn button off his coat, solemnly presented it to her. —James Barrie Wimminfolk they be tricksy. - ZenGum

07-26-2010, 11:46 AM	#59
Undertoad Radical Centrist Join Date: Jan 2001 Location: Cottage of Prussia Posts: 31,423	That's kinda why there are no special tags or anything marking a donor. I admire the places like SomethingAwful where you have to pay to even post, but we are a community, and it becomes something else if it requires payment.

07-26-2010, 11:51 AM	#60
Shawnee123 Why, you're a regular Alfred E Einstein, ain't ya? Join Date: Jun 2006 Posts: 21,206	Plus, you've always held a top spot in my lottery list, where I'll be so filthy stinking rich I'll not only contribute huge amounts so that all you ever need worry about anymore is Cellar maintenance, I'll be all like "Look what I did, match THAT fuckers." Found money can be low-class that way, and yet still make some people quite content. __________________ A word to the wise ain't necessary - it's the stupid ones who need the advice. --Bill Cosby

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