Here's the story

Big Sarge · 04-22-2011, 09:27 AM

I finally recieved my meds. I had 2 biopsies this week. The first was on my prostate and the second was on my shoulder. My low cortisol levels have asllowed me to develop a pretty nasty staph infection.

I disappeared because I felt like I was making a fool out of myself by appearing pathetic. I can't stand pity. Out in the real world, I'm a pretty hard nosed old school cop or in the National Guard my guys swear R. Lee Ermey is my twin. What I'm getting at is I allowed too many people to see how soft or vulnerable I really am at times. I couldn't stand that. Be it pride or arrogance, the mean old son of a bitch role is all that I have.

That being said, some of you might be puzzled because you have seen videos of children's projects I participate in. Children are my soft spot. They melt my heart. God help you if I catch you abusing a child.

I disappeared just like I did for awhile after I made a complete idiot out of myself when Cassie left me. I even took medical leave from work.

Plthjinx, Tulip, Merc, Dana, and SC. I appreciate you checking on me. I'm back at work, semi-light duty. Look over this post, it is rambling but somehow in my mind it makes sense.

monster · 04-22-2011, 09:29 AM

Glad to see you back -did you get the biopsy results yet?

Griff · 04-22-2011, 09:31 AM

Glad you're back. Your hard-ass credentials are still intact.

Trilby · 04-22-2011, 10:27 AM

Glad you are here, Sarge.

BigV · 04-22-2011, 10:31 AM

Big Sarge, whatever persona you display, that's up to you. You fit in here, and you were missed.

It's good to see you again.

Sheldonrs · 04-22-2011, 10:40 AM

Welcome back BS! :-)

Pico and ME · 04-22-2011, 10:42 AM

Wow, irl you are a bad MoFo?? You totally stumped me Sarge...your heart is just too damn big....

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DanaC · 04-22-2011, 10:54 AM

Oh i can believe he's a Bad MoFo.

I also think he has a heart of gold.

kerosene · 04-22-2011, 11:23 AM

Missed you, Sarge. Glad to see you back.

BTW, my family loves Ermy's Lock n Load show. We watch it on Netflix. Have you seen those?

anonymoo · 04-22-2011, 12:17 PM

Hiddy-Ho neighbor

Nirvana · 04-22-2011, 01:16 PM

Nice to see you back here you old bastard

Stormieweather · 04-22-2011, 01:19 PM

Welcome back, Sarge

Sundae · 04-22-2011, 01:22 PM

Missed you Sarge, as I said in PM.

You mean a lot to a lot of people here.
As I said, we don't know about your persona or your outer shell, because here you type what's in your mind. So it's a shortcut to the real you - and here you come across as kind and open hearted.

I can't say my soft spot is children (I'm not sure I have a soft spot that way - my red-hot-spot perhaps is inequality) but I will say that working with them is the most worthwhile thing I have ever done in my life. Being a good father, and protecting children in general in no way compromises a Tough Guy.

For goodnes sake don't ever think expressing your emotions here is pathetic.
Perhaps breaking down in the supermarket and telling the cashier all your issues might be a little suspect. Or getting on the bus and hugging the driver, telling him about your past and why it makes you respect him. But coming to the Cellar and offloading is normal and appropriate. And certainly at the level you have shared with us. You have not made a fool of yourself. You have not made an idiot of yourself. You are a decent human being.

I just won't have a conversation with you about capital punishment

morethanpretty · 04-22-2011, 01:23 PM

Hi Sarge! Glad to hear from you.

HungLikeJesus · 04-22-2011, 01:57 PM

Welcome back.

Your dreams were your ticket out.

04-22-2011, 09:27 AM	#1
Big Sarge Werepandas - lurking in your shadows Join Date: Jun 2008 Location: In the Deep South Posts: 3,408	Here's the story I finally recieved my meds. I had 2 biopsies this week. The first was on my prostate and the second was on my shoulder. My low cortisol levels have asllowed me to develop a pretty nasty staph infection. I disappeared because I felt like I was making a fool out of myself by appearing pathetic. I can't stand pity. Out in the real world, I'm a pretty hard nosed old school cop or in the National Guard my guys swear R. Lee Ermey is my twin. What I'm getting at is I allowed too many people to see how soft or vulnerable I really am at times. I couldn't stand that. Be it pride or arrogance, the mean old son of a bitch role is all that I have. That being said, some of you might be puzzled because you have seen videos of children's projects I participate in. Children are my soft spot. They melt my heart. God help you if I catch you abusing a child. I disappeared just like I did for awhile after I made a complete idiot out of myself when Cassie left me. I even took medical leave from work. Plthjinx, Tulip, Merc, Dana, and SC. I appreciate you checking on me. I'm back at work, semi-light duty. Look over this post, it is rambling but somehow in my mind it makes sense. __________________ Give a man a match, & he'll be warm for 20 seconds. But toss that man a white phosphorus grenade and he'll be warm for the rest of his life.

04-22-2011, 09:29 AM	#2
monster I hear them call the tide Join Date: Dec 2005 Location: Perpetual Chaos Posts: 30,852	Glad to see you back -did you get the biopsy results yet? __________________ The most difficult thing is the decision to act, the rest is merely tenacity Amelia Earhart

04-22-2011, 09:31 AM	#3
Griff still says videotape Join Date: Feb 2001 Posts: 26,813	Glad you're back. Your hard-ass credentials are still intact. __________________ If you would only recognize that life is hard, things would be so much easier for you. - Louis D. Brandeis

04-22-2011, 10:27 AM	#4
Trilby Slattern of the Swail Join Date: Jul 2004 Posts: 15,654	Glad you are here, Sarge. __________________ In Barrie's play and novel, the roles of fairies are brief: they are allies to the Lost Boys, the source of fairy dust and ...They are portrayed as dangerous, whimsical and extremely clever but quite hedonistic. "Shall I give you a kiss?" Peter asked and, jerking an acorn button off his coat, solemnly presented it to her. —James Barrie Wimminfolk they be tricksy. - ZenGum

04-22-2011, 10:31 AM	#5
BigV Goon Squad Leader Join Date: Nov 2004 Location: Seattle Posts: 27,063	Big Sarge, whatever persona you display, that's up to you. You fit in here, and you were missed. It's good to see you again. __________________ Be Just and Fear Not.

04-22-2011, 10:40 AM	#6
Sheldonrs Master Dwellar Join Date: Oct 2006 Location: Los Angeles, CA Posts: 4,412	Welcome back BS! :-) __________________ Laugh and the world laughs with you; cry and the world laughs AT you.

04-22-2011, 10:42 AM	#7
Pico and ME Are you knock-kneed? Join Date: Jul 2008 Location: Middle Hoosierland Posts: 3,549	Wow, irl you are a bad MoFo?? You totally stumped me Sarge...your heart is just too damn big.....

04-22-2011, 11:23 AM	#9
kerosene Touring the facilities Join Date: Nov 2002 Location: The plains of Colorado Posts: 3,476	Missed you, Sarge. Glad to see you back. BTW, my family loves Ermy's Lock n Load show. We watch it on Netflix. Have you seen those?

04-22-2011, 12:17 PM	#10
anonymoo Disorderly Orderly Join Date: Feb 2011 Posts: 52	Hiddy-Ho neighbor

04-22-2011, 01:16 PM	#11
Nirvana Back in 10 Join Date: Aug 2008 Posts: 3,684	Nice to see you back here you old bastard __________________ Speaking simply... do not confuse this with having a simple mind.

04-22-2011, 01:19 PM	#12
Stormieweather Wearing her bitch boots Join Date: Apr 2006 Location: Floriduh Posts: 1,181	Welcome back, Sarge __________________ "First they ignore you, then they ridicule you, then they fight you, then you win." - Mahatma Gandhi

04-22-2011, 01:22 PM	#13
Sundae polaroid of perfection Join Date: Sep 2005 Location: West Yorkshire Posts: 24,185	Missed you Sarge, as I said in PM. You mean a lot to a lot of people here. As I said, we don't know about your persona or your outer shell, because here you type what's in your mind. So it's a shortcut to the real you - and here you come across as kind and open hearted. I can't say my soft spot is children (I'm not sure I have a soft spot that way - my red-hot-spot perhaps is inequality) but I will say that working with them is the most worthwhile thing I have ever done in my life. Being a good father, and protecting children in general in no way compromises a Tough Guy. For goodnes sake don't ever think expressing your emotions here is pathetic. Perhaps breaking down in the supermarket and telling the cashier all your issues might be a little suspect. Or getting on the bus and hugging the driver, telling him about your past and why it makes you respect him. But coming to the Cellar and offloading is normal and appropriate. And certainly at the level you have shared with us. You have not made a fool of yourself. You have not made an idiot of yourself. You are a decent human being. I just won't have a conversation with you about capital punishment

04-22-2011, 01:23 PM	#14
morethanpretty Thats "Miss Zipper Neck" to you. Join Date: Sep 2006 Location: little town (but not the littlest) in texas Posts: 2,957	Hi Sarge! Glad to hear from you. __________________ Addicts may suck dick for coke, but love came up with the idea to put a dick in there to begin with. -Jack O'Brien

04-22-2011, 01:57 PM	#15
HungLikeJesus Only looks like a disaster tourist Join Date: Feb 2007 Location: above 7,000 feet Posts: 7,208	Welcome back. Your dreams were your ticket out. __________________ Keep Your Bodies Off My Lawn SteveDallas's Random Thread Picker.

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