I give up

[morethanpretty]

I hate school, I always have. Now I have to take full time college classes along with working full time so that I can afford those classes. I don't have time/energy/motivation to get the grades I need in those classes. I don't have a career I'm interested in, and I cannot stand writing paper after paper after paper. I'm burned out. Done. Fine`. All I want to be able to do is work (yes I like my job) and curl up in my boyfriend's arms every night. I can't even sleep with him regularly anymore now that he had to move back to his parents so that he could go back to school. He got in huge major trouble this weekend b/c we crashed at his house Sat. night after a party and we slept in the same bed. He's 21 for goodness' sake, he was drunk and we were only there to sleep. When he was on his own I could drive over to his house when I was feeling rotten and sleep with him. Now I don't even know how to get to his house, and even if I did' we can't do that. Renting a hotel room seems tawdry and forced. And the last time I really needed him at night (I'm a bit insominactic-- word?) I called and his answer? "Honey its late and we have class in the morning, plus where would we sleep together? I miss you but we can't." Its logical, but I can't do this any more. I need him.