how can you be Bi?

[Iggy]

I was raised in the bible belt (and still live there)... so pretty much anything other then completely straight was considered bi. When I was young I used to get embarrassed because of how I would look at other women... and get turned on my thinking about being with them.

I enjoy having sex with other women, though I haven't had many women partners. I have noticed that a lot of women that were "bi" just wanted to kiss me in front of men (since men are so turned on by women kissing), and when I wanted to go somewhere private to get really intimate, it never happened. Except for a few of my girl friends, who weren't necessarily open about. We did all our kissing behind closed doors...

Around here, it seems like the more open women are about it, the less likely it is that they are really bi. Few of the people I know now know that I am bi, or at least consider myself such. The funny part is, the only reason they don't know is because no one asks. But I think some people have suspicions... especially the ones that catch me oogling another woman. The female form is just so beautiful.

I don't think I could be in a long term, exclusive relationship with a woman though. It feels more like friendship, with extras. My really close girl friends are always the ones I want to sleep with. It feels like an extension of our friendship... a physical act to show I love them, in addition to it being sexually satisfying. It is just different than being with a man. I love threesomes... I think it would be much more satisfying for me to have a long term relationship with a man and a woman than just a woman. I'm not sure how to explain it... But when I'm just with a woman, it just doesn't seem as fulfilling as when I'm with a man. Maybe that means I'm not really bi? I feel like I am though. I get too much joy out of the female body (looking and playing with it) to see myself as straight.