What is pissing you off this time?

[monster]

It starts the very first time someone prioritizes how you look over who you are and what you can do. Which they do for girls way more than boys.

For me, aged 5 or so, enrolling for ballet for the first time and hearing the ballet teacher tell my mum I was fat. I knew I was fat and unlovable all the way through school and all the way til I fell in love with someone who was even fatter than me and never seemed to notice. And as I matured and started to look back, I saw pictures of me as a kid and realized I had never been fat at all. But because I knew I was fat and unlovable, I never tried to make friend or join clubs....

Fortunately for me, I'm fucking stubborn so I did do the ballet and I earned the highest grading possible at every damn grade test I took.

Eventually, I made it to university and had a chance for a new start, and no-one seemed to hate me for being fat. They didn't seem to notice.

But even now, awesome person that I am, that damage is still there. It is very hard to love myself. And I am fat, because that one is a self-fulfilling prophesy and I never loved myself enough to prevent it.

And Grav, your opinion has never counted because the first time I was brave enough to post a candid image on here (a video, even, of me enjoying the surf ride at a water park) you called me fat. I am sorry that looks are so important to you. You're missing out on a lot of good people.

[Gravdigr]

Originally Posted by monster

And Grav, your opinion has never counted because the first time I was brave enough to post a candid image on here (a video, even, of me enjoying the surf ride at a water park) you called me fat. I am sorry that looks are so important to you. You're missing out on a lot of good people.

I ain't missing a thing.

Just remember you got here from "That's a good looking kid.", that's what it appears you're griping about. Someone complimented your kid. The audacity.

Anyone, ANYONE, who wasn't searching for something to be offended by, or unhappy about, would take the compliment and go on.

First world problems, I guess?

Yeah, I said what I said. I've said a great many things that were not deserved by the people to whom they were spoken. I apologize for that, especially for the manner in which it was said. It was a very childish thing to have said, and it reflects an outlook that I hope is no longer part of my way of thinking. It is one of many things I've said here that I regret. I would like to think that, thanks to The Cellar, you, at times, and others here, I am (believe it or not) a little bit better person than I have been in the past. And I thank all of you for that.

And as far as me and my opinions not mattering around here, you ain't telling me, or anyone else here, a goddamned thing. If I cared a whit what some of you actually, truly, thought of me, I would have been gone, or in the penitentiary cemetery, a long time ago. I like some of the folks here, and I'm not willing to let the bastards run me off, not just yet anyway. I won't be here much longer though, so, just be patient, I'll be gone soon enough.
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You have raised a nice family.

Oops, I've insulted you again.

Your children are smart and athletic.

Oh God, how much of this can you take??????

<---Not that you, or anyone else, cares....

[xoxoxoBruce]

Originally Posted by Gravdigr

I won't be here much longer though, so, just be patient, I'll be gone soon enough.

Fugetaboutit, you ain't goin' nowhere. You can check out any time you want, but you can never leave.