Laebedah's Poetry

[laebedahs]

I am torn
Torn between who I need to love
and between who I want to love
I am unable to win
Emotion trickles from my skin
dousing all those who stand in my way.
Turn the tap off, they might say!
Ha, as if it is easy!
The attempt is not measely.

But I must try
I must
to protect those I care for
even though I wish for more
even though I am so torn.
Again.

[laebedahs]

Not knowing someone
yet becoming so attached
ruins my heart
my spirit.
The pain is foolish;
why does it hurt so?
I barely knew her
yet she showed earnest interest.

Will things ever change?
Will life get better?
Of course I know it will
but for now, this
the pain
is what I feel.

And for now,
that pain is eternity.