Need some help

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I am not sure exactly what the fines are for, that is just what I assumed. It would probably be good to ask him specifics. I know that it seems bad, but he hit a bad spot right before he met me. It just seems that he started getting comfortable - still wanted a job, but I don't know if he worked real hard at it. I know he had a couple prospects that were thwarted by the ankle jewlery.

As sad as it seems, I think that may be one of the main reasons I left. So he isn't as comfortable and maybe has the motivation to change things. I also just wasnt sure if he was the man I wanted. He is my first boyfriend and that just wasn't sitting well with me, but I knew as long as I stayed there, I would stay with him no matter what and that wasn't the best thing for either of us. I know running away isn't the answer, but in my case, it is. A temporary thing most likely, but I have never been away from my hometown. This was a chance to get out on my own and see if I could make it or if I liked it better somewhere else.

I do miss home and will probably return after a year away, but at least I was gone, ya know?

I don't know why I decided to tell you all that, but there it is.