Dear cellar,

[Sundae]

You know what?
I typed all that, went away and metaphorically kicked myself in the head.

Sod that.
There are people I care about who I have addresses for.
But there are plenty of people here I care about.
I'm stupid to hide in my own hurt and cut my nose off to spite my face. And one thing I don't acccuse myself of is stupidity.

I think I've got the issue out of my system - mostly.
I still don't think I should be the only Dwellar called to account for irresponsibility - it occurs in many forms.
If other people aren't picked up on weight issues, drug use, alcohol use etc, I don't think it's fair if I have to think every time I post about my personal life either. And let's face it, 99.9% of what I post about is my personal life.

But I need to grow a thicker skin, stand up for myself more without collapsing into tears. And IF I have to justify what I spend, I will do - after a while, other Dwellars will be bored by it and ask questions as to why it's necessary.

Mostly I've been hurting because I've been away.
And yes, that's melodramatic too.
You's an addiction.