Christmas Cooking

[infinite monkey]

Originally Posted by Sundae

No shouting here babba.
Infi has had the same issue. She's said so on the board so I'm not breaking confidence.

I have had a real issue about being left out all my life.
My most disturbing dreams involve my Mum and sister and them hiding things from me. I am so angry/ distressed I physically attack them. A dream where I smash my sister's head into concrete is extreme but not unknown.

Here though, I am quite relaxed. I was paranoid as a newb. But not now.
Although other things can seriously bug me. I PM'd someone recently about a response I'd had. I took it VERY personally. The person I PM'd gently suggested a different way to read it, and they were right. I had read far too much into it, as later posts proved.

This is a good place, all round.
Look what Mari endured and then came back as bigger, better, more.

I just read this.

I know all those feelings.

It's like "we can't know you if you don't show us" yet sometimes when one tentatively reaches out one 'feels' as though their hand was slapped away. As if to say "you are not good enough."

It's quite painful to be obviously dismissed, too, when one is reaching out the best they know how (I almost typed 'the beest they know how' sorry monster!) and are ignored. I'd rather be yelled at than ignored. Ignored does indeed say "you are not good enough." So be it.

This is MY hang-up, I know, in my more lucid less convoluted times. I just keep riding the waves.

Oh hell, I got nuttin' about cooking.

Maybe I"ll post some of my grandma's recipes. I inherited her little recipe box and was going through it this weekend, as a matter o' fact.

Anyone ever heard of a homemade candy called 'sea foam'?