I want to go get drunk!

SamIam · 12-18-2009, 12:52 PM

I have been on the wagon for a while now, but I definitely feel like stepping off today. I guess its holiday depression and the fact that my ride to my AA meeting never showed, but I'm feeling like fuck this. I'm sitting in my apartment all alone and there's no one to care if I go buy a pint of peppermint schnapps. Its very hard not having a car and being disabled, and sometimes - like today, things get the best of me. Maybe I'll just go curl up on the bed with my cats and take a nap and I'll feel better when I wake up. I am really trying to do this sobriety thing, but I feel very near defeat today.

monster · 12-18-2009, 12:55 PM

Grab a Harry Potter book, snuggle up under a blanket and forget the world for a bit. Might not make you feel better, but at least i won't be the only unproductive lump on this board..... and you never know, it might work....

Undertoad · 12-18-2009, 12:56 PM

It's not worth the money

Juniper · 12-18-2009, 01:02 PM

Go out to the ice cream shop and get yourself something horrifically decadent, with lots of syrup and whipped cream.

Ice cream and chocolate always make me feel better.

Stormieweather · 12-18-2009, 01:02 PM

Just don't have a drink today. Tomorrow...well, decide tomorrow what you'll do tomorrow.

Sometimes I want to get drunk too. I miss the buzz, the loss of some serious inhibitions, the way everything seemed so much less gloomy (after the 2nd drink but before the 6th).

Except for the times when I woke up with my head pounding not remembering how I got wherever I was, or a deeply buried anger and/or sorrow surfaced and fell down my face in the form of tears or my brain disconnected from my mouth and bridges were burned.

I don't miss that.

6 years, 3 months, 16 days sobriety here.

You can do it.

monster · 12-18-2009, 01:06 PM

Hold on for a little longer, you never know what good things are around the corner....

Juniper · 12-18-2009, 01:06 PM

I'm seriously thinking of going on that wagon myself, as a New Year's thing.

I quit smoking shortly after New Year's, 8 years ago.

I'm not an irresponsible drunk, I don't think -- but I do drink too much and too regularly and stay up too late and don't get enough accomplished.

I also think it might be the root of some of my recent health problems, like blood pressure. So maybe it's time.

Trilby · 12-18-2009, 01:22 PM

sam, hang on. Think it through. are you hungry, angry, lonely, tired?

the sundae thing works for me - I never want to drink after I eat - esp. if it's all sugar.

you know what the ISM in alcoholism stands for - Incredibly Short Memory. Think - what happend to you the last time you drank? bet it wasn't good. do you have a sponsor?? someone to call??

limey · 12-18-2009, 04:50 PM

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Originally Posted by SamIam

I have been on the wagon for a while now, but I definitely feel like stepping off today. I guess its holiday depression and the fact that my ride to my AA meeting never showed, but I'm feeling like fuck this. I'm sitting in my apartment all alone and there's no one to care if I go buy a pint of peppermint schnapps. Its very hard not having a car and being disabled, and sometimes - like today, things get the best of me. Maybe I'll just go curl up on the bed with my cats and take a nap and I'll feel better when I wake up. I am really trying to do this sobriety thing, but I feel very near defeat today.

WRONG!!!! We care. Today, choose ice-cream. Or Harry Potter. Or a nice hot cup of tea. Or the cats and the nap. Stormie is right - tomorrow is not today's issue. Right now, the cats and the nap sound good to me.

skysidhe · 12-18-2009, 05:06 PM

Ice cream! tea and a book!

Cicero · 12-18-2009, 06:49 PM

I agree! Grab a book!

I am sorry your ride bailed....but we are usually right here on the cellar...(not that I am great company)

SamIam · 12-18-2009, 07:07 PM

Thanks, everyone. I curled up with the cats and the book and they all helped. I need to find a more dependeble ride than the woman who's been picking me up lately. She got ticked off at me over something stupid and now picks me up when she feels like it.

Thank heavens for my two little fur faces who helped me through the day. Pets are wonderful!

Griff · 12-18-2009, 09:22 PM

Well done Sam. I'm with the dry crowd as well. This can be a tough season, lean on the Cellar.

monster · 12-18-2009, 09:27 PM

I'm not with the dry crowd at all, but reading Harry Potter apparently slows down my beer consumption (as well as the rest of my life...)

Griff · 12-19-2009, 08:33 AM

Join the roll call Sam.

12-18-2009, 12:52 PM	#1
SamIam Registered User Join Date: Jun 2007 Location: Not here Posts: 2,655	I want to go get drunk! I have been on the wagon for a while now, but I definitely feel like stepping off today. I guess its holiday depression and the fact that my ride to my AA meeting never showed, but I'm feeling like fuck this. I'm sitting in my apartment all alone and there's no one to care if I go buy a pint of peppermint schnapps. Its very hard not having a car and being disabled, and sometimes - like today, things get the best of me. Maybe I'll just go curl up on the bed with my cats and take a nap and I'll feel better when I wake up. I am really trying to do this sobriety thing, but I feel very near defeat today.

12-18-2009, 12:55 PM	#2
monster I hear them call the tide Join Date: Dec 2005 Location: Perpetual Chaos Posts: 30,852	Grab a Harry Potter book, snuggle up under a blanket and forget the world for a bit. Might not make you feel better, but at least i won't be the only unproductive lump on this board..... and you never know, it might work.... __________________ The most difficult thing is the decision to act, the rest is merely tenacity Amelia Earhart

12-18-2009, 01:02 PM	#5
Stormieweather Wearing her bitch boots Join Date: Apr 2006 Location: Floriduh Posts: 1,181	Just don't have a drink today. Tomorrow...well, decide tomorrow what you'll do tomorrow. Sometimes I want to get drunk too. I miss the buzz, the loss of some serious inhibitions, the way everything seemed so much less gloomy (after the 2nd drink but before the 6th). Except for the times when I woke up with my head pounding not remembering how I got wherever I was, or a deeply buried anger and/or sorrow surfaced and fell down my face in the form of tears or my brain disconnected from my mouth and bridges were burned. I don't miss that. 6 years, 3 months, 16 days sobriety here. You can do it. __________________ "First they ignore you, then they ridicule you, then they fight you, then you win." - Mahatma Gandhi Last edited by Stormieweather; 12-18-2009 at 01:03 PM. Reason: I can't count.

12-18-2009, 01:06 PM	#6
monster I hear them call the tide Join Date: Dec 2005 Location: Perpetual Chaos Posts: 30,852	Hold on for a little longer, you never know what good things are around the corner.... __________________ The most difficult thing is the decision to act, the rest is merely tenacity Amelia Earhart

12-18-2009, 01:22 PM	#8
Trilby Slattern of the Swail Join Date: Jul 2004 Posts: 15,654	sam, hang on. Think it through. are you hungry, angry, lonely, tired? the sundae thing works for me - I never want to drink after I eat - esp. if it's all sugar. you know what the ISM in alcoholism stands for - Incredibly Short Memory. Think - what happend to you the last time you drank? bet it wasn't good. do you have a sponsor?? someone to call?? __________________ In Barrie's play and novel, the roles of fairies are brief: they are allies to the Lost Boys, the source of fairy dust and ...They are portrayed as dangerous, whimsical and extremely clever but quite hedonistic. "Shall I give you a kiss?" Peter asked and, jerking an acorn button off his coat, solemnly presented it to her. —James Barrie Wimminfolk they be tricksy. - ZenGum

12-18-2009, 12:56 PM	#3
Undertoad Radical Centrist Join Date: Jan 2001 Location: Cottage of Prussia Posts: 31,423	It's not worth the money

12-18-2009, 01:02 PM	#4
Juniper I know, right? Join Date: Aug 2008 Posts: 1,539	Go out to the ice cream shop and get yourself something horrifically decadent, with lots of syrup and whipped cream. Ice cream and chocolate always make me feel better.

12-18-2009, 05:06 PM	#10
skysidhe ~~Life is either a daring adventure or nothing.~~ Join Date: Apr 2006 Posts: 6,828	Ice cream! tea and a book!

12-18-2009, 06:49 PM	#11
Cicero Looking forward to open mic night. Join Date: Oct 2006 Location: New Mexico Posts: 5,148	I agree! Grab a book! I am sorry your ride bailed....but we are usually right here on the cellar...(not that I am great company) __________________ Show me a sane man, and I will cure him for you.- Carl Jung

12-18-2009, 07:07 PM	#12
SamIam Registered User Join Date: Jun 2007 Location: Not here Posts: 2,655	Thanks, everyone. I curled up with the cats and the book and they all helped. I need to find a more dependeble ride than the woman who's been picking me up lately. She got ticked off at me over something stupid and now picks me up when she feels like it. Thank heavens for my two little fur faces who helped me through the day. Pets are wonderful!

12-18-2009, 09:22 PM	#13
Griff still says videotape Join Date: Feb 2001 Posts: 26,813	Well done Sam. I'm with the dry crowd as well. This can be a tough season, lean on the Cellar. __________________ If you would only recognize that life is hard, things would be so much easier for you. - Louis D. Brandeis

12-18-2009, 09:27 PM	#14
monster I hear them call the tide Join Date: Dec 2005 Location: Perpetual Chaos Posts: 30,852	I'm not with the dry crowd at all, but reading Harry Potter apparently slows down my beer consumption (as well as the rest of my life...) __________________ The most difficult thing is the decision to act, the rest is merely tenacity Amelia Earhart

12-19-2009, 08:33 AM	#15
Griff still says videotape Join Date: Feb 2001 Posts: 26,813	Join the roll call Sam. __________________ If you would only recognize that life is hard, things would be so much easier for you. - Louis D. Brandeis

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